Once Personality Wins (Seventeen Jihan)

Lesson 11: Who Really is the Tutor?

I messed up, I messed up big time. There is going coming back with this one. How in the world did I even manage to let something like that slip out of my mouth? I was saying a lot to myself in my head but I rather keep that disclosed, but nonetheless I felt like running away. I want to run far far away or at least hide in the bed forever but, I knew it wouldn't have helped either way. If I ran away to my room Prince Jeonghan will come right in and tell me he needs a spot to sleep in.

So I guess I will have to go along with my mistake for now I guess. Oh, theres always that option that I can make a time machine and travel back in time to smack myself before I get to say it?

Nope, that will never happen. I sighed and looked at Prince Jeonghan, "Ah yes?" I said more like a question. But instead of him freaking out that his Royal tutor is, in fact, an escapee of Guania he smiled brightly.

"I'm so glad that you managed to escape." He said to himself.

I was dumbfounded by this, "What no extra reaction?" I had to question.

He turned to me with a confused face and scrasking his head in question thinking about something, "Should I have?" he asked me.

I shook my head and waved my hands stopping him from thinking anything else of it, "No it is perfectly fine that you didn't." I said but stopped all my movement and tilted my head and asked, "But why?"

"Hum," He thought "Well my mom is currently working on freeing them as we talk," Jeonghan said like it was nothing special.

My eye bulged out "What no way!!!" I basically yelled at the top of my lungs

Prince Jeonghan whinced as he covered his ears and said in an annoyed voice, "Ah you didn't have to tell in my ears like that."

I blushed as I dug my toe into the ground, "Sorry but I couldn't help it, is the Queen really doing that?" I said lower.

He let go of his ears and hesistantly said, "Yes she is but, um... may I ask you one more question?"

"Go ahead anything." I smiled at him.

Suddenly the wind started to blow hard. My eyes closed as I tried to block the wind from my eyes. Once the wind calmed down I opened my eyes and saw that Prince Jeonghan's hair was all over the place. I laughed to myself as I reached out my hands and moved the hair out of his face, putting a strand behind his ear. He looked at in the eyes with his watery eyes and I couldn't seem to leave them.

"Um, you can let go now." He said his face turning a shade of pink

I snapped my hand away and laughed nervously, "Yeah right. Go on with your question." I said trying to change the subject as quickly as possible.

"You were talking to your mom the other day right?" Jeonghan asked takeing the distraction.

"Ahhh I guess you would be questioning in that. To make things simpler she isn't my biological mother but my adoptive one." I nodded and explained to him.

"Oh ok"He simply said

I smmiled at how Jeonghan was actiously waiting for me to elaborate without him actually asking me, "As you may have figured out already I am an escapee but that was only because of my family and goring their way to get me to freedom." I happily started to explain.

Prince Jeonghan's head shot up and looked at me with horror already figuring out what was going to happen next, "Tutor Joshua you don't need to tell me."

I shock my head already feeling my smile drop more and more, "But for some reason, I feel like I am obligated to tell you so. So, with my escape, I lost my mother and father. At least I still have my little sister, if only she wasn't stuck there."

Prince Jeonghan frowed as I said all this, "Tutor Joshua I am so sorry to hear this."

I got off the bench and looked at Prince Jeonghan and made a poor attempt of a smile, "It's ok... But if you don't mind would you let me leave to my room?"

Jeonghan looked at me without saying a word at first but sighed as he waved his hand and looking away from me, "Yes, you have my promotion." he said in a low voice.

I made my way away from Prince Jeonghan to a place where he couldn't see me. And once I finally found the right place I let my self go. The tears fall one by one as I thought back to my family and the real purpose of becoming a royal tutor.

I thought back to when my adoptive mother saw me walking alone crying on the streets. She approached me and welcomed me with open arms. I jumped into her arms telling her everything that was going on, a first she was surprised and thought it was just some weird imagination of a kid since I was only 12 at the time.

But once she saw the news about an escape she looked at me with surprise. But even after realizing the truth she still treated me like I was her own.

My adoptive mom wasn't pretty at all, she lived in the lowest or lowest conditions in the South Kingdom. She wasn't the prettiest or the wealthiest but I knew for a matter of fact that she was the kindest.

As I grow up she told me how handsome I was getting and how it made her so happy that I was growing up to be a face worthy of getting a well-paying job. When she said that though, I really didn't like how appearance determined if you would succeed in life. I didn't like that idea so much that I decided to drop everything and started to become a tutor.

Once I became a tutor I ultimately forgot about the fact that I wanted to become an activist and help my sister to get out of that place. Now that the Prince mentioned it, I was doing nothing, absolutely nothing to save my sister and that will eat me alive for every second I waste doing nothing.

I was eating myself up so much that I didn't realize I blanked out of reality until I felt a tap on my shoulder and tenses thinking it was Prince Jeonghan. Gladly it wasn't it was just Chelsea the maid. "Um are you ok Tutor Joshua?"

I opened my mouth but nothing came out. I cleared my throat and luckily words started to flow out, "I would like to say I am but as you can see Chelsea I'm not."

Chelsea started to frown as she pulled me into a hug and patted my head, "Aw it's ok Tutor Joshua I don't know what is upsetting you and I don't think it is my place to ask. But if it makes you feel better than how about you go back to your room and there will be a stack of freshly baked muffins that I made not  so long ago."

I looked at Chelsea and I couldn't help but give her a tight hug back. "Thank you so much I will definitely feel better."

I ran off but a hand stopped me from doig so, "Oh and tutor make sure to come to me if you are feeling down." Chelsea said winking at me.