Who do I trust

State

Many days have gone by now, and Jennifer is nowhere to be seen, the last time I saw her she was being vies griped and pulled out of this room by Gustavo, I wonder what she did to her, I wonder if we are ever going to see her again. She did us bad but she didn't deserve to be taken like that, two wrongs don't make a right but I bet Gustavo won't get that. Katherine has been gone for days too, I wonder if their treatment takes this long or she was transferred to another cell or maybe we need to think of the worst case scenario at this moment, maybe she never made it, I wonder how my body as well as Graces are this strong, we have been drugged continuously everyday through the food we eat, I think they are trying to make us weak so that we don't try to escape, and even if we do, we don't get any far before they recapture us then we get a punishment.

Many guys of different races keep on coming in day by day and checking up on us...Asians, Blacks, Whites and etc. They come in to buy certain girls and leave.

They are front men for the real bosses behind the curtains, they come in dressed casually and they don't talk, the door gets open they peep at us and nod for "Yes" or shake their heads from left to right to say "No". The way we were, I don't think we were going to be purchased by any of them...the only time we had a bath was after 3 days, we had no soap...only a cloth and a shower cap, the guards would stand behind us as we stood in one shower cap, usually a maximum of 5 girls per minute, we were not allowed to communicate, the only noise there was the waters out of the shower cap hitting our skin and the floor.

We had no toiletries to make us Smell good. The men would usually show up after 2 days to purchase us, and while intoxicated, Grace and I came up with a plan to escape when those men were around because the place wouldn't be heavily guarded by then, the guards only wanted to please the customers and escort them from cell to cell, block to block.

We spent most of our time hallucinating when high and when the high faded we would reach the Tweaking stage; this is when a methamphetamine abuser is most dangerous when experiencing a phase of the addiction called tweaking—a condition reached at the end of a drug binge when methamphetamine no longer provides a rush or a high. Unable to relieve the horrible feelings of emptiness and craving, an abuser loses his/her sense of identity. Intense itching is common and a user can become convinced that bugs are crawling under his/her skin. Unable to sleep for days at a time, the abuser is often in a completely psychotic state and he/she exists in his own world, seeing and hearing things that no one else can perceive. His/her hallucinations are so vivid that they seem real and, disconnected from reality, he/she can become hostile and dangerous to himself/herself and others. The potential for self mutilation is high.

Grace would sometimes get emotional and hostile when on the twerking stage and it would last for about 2 hours before we fell to the "crash stage" To a binge abuser, the crash happens when the body shuts down, unable to cope with the drug effects overwhelming it; this results in a long period of sleep for the person. Even the meanest, most violent abuser becomes almost lifeless during the crash. The crash can last one to three days. Which made it more challenging for us to escape. The following stage would be the "Meth Hangover" After the crash, the abuser returns in a deteriorated state, starved, dehydrated and utterly exhausted physically, mentally and emotionally. This stage ordinarily lasts from two to fourteen days. This leads to enforced addiction, as the solution to these feelings is to take more meth. The food then came in handy as it contained a dose of meth and we were hungry for it as well. The final stage would be the "Withdrawal stage" Often thirty to ninety days can pass after the last drug use before the abuser realizes that he/she is in withdrawal. First, he/she becomes depressed, loses his/her energy and the ability to experience pleasure. Then the craving for more methamphetamine hits.

Lucky we never experienced the withdrawal stage as we had a daily supply of the meth.

We figured if we were going to plan something soil we needed to stop eating the food with meth and fight the withdrawal.