Alpha Knox

Chapter 4

EDITED (mostly. May still change a few small things lol)

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I look at him confused, but he keeps his face calm.
"My name is Knox Melkane, I am the alpha of the Blood Moon Pack. I'm twenty three years old, and as I know you've heard, I'm your mate. I've known for a long time."

"I first saw you when I turned eighteen. The day my wolf recognized you as my mate. It was my birthday celebration. My parents had thrown me a huge party and invited your pack as a peace offering after our fathers had a recent quarrel that was then settled.
When I saw you, I knew instantly that we will one day be bonded."

He added on, "your father was the first to know. I knew you weren't of age and we made an agreement that I would come down the week of your eighteenth to meet you officially. I've waited whats felt a like a lifetime. I know that I have behaved coldly, but it's because I have so many emotions built up in me...and for that I'd like to apologize. I didn't mean to lash out on you and Eli. I didn't get the choice in saving myself for you. I...I-" he stopped.

I place my hand on his, seeing him battle himself.
Alphas are known to be tough, and emotionless. I can't imagine how hard it must be to flick the switch and make a sudden change to let the walls down in an instant. Only to put them back up so others can't see what's going on inside your head.

"I was groomed by my parents friend Josephine, a woman I called my aunt. She was always very touchy, rubbing my shoulders and giving me long hugs. When I turned sixteen, she pulled me aside and told me her wolf couldn't wait any longer. That I had to know the truth. She told me we were mates and destined for each other. She then said she wanted to prove it to me by showing me she could make me feel things no other could.
That was the first time she preformed oral on me. That was the first time I ever experienced anything sexual in my life. And it was with a forty-two year old woman."
He looks at me with his eyes full of anger and sorrow. I keep my eyes on him even when he looks down at our hands and starts rubbing circles upon my skin.

"You don't need to continue Knox, not until you're ready." I reassure him, but he shakes his head.

"You're my mate. I want for you to trust me. I need for you to trust me. So I need to tell you. If I don't, I'll feel dishonest toward you and that's not a feeling mates should share."

I nod my head in agreement, understanding that this is something he's ready for. I just need to be here and listen to him, support him. Hold him and show him I care.
Because I do. I care so deeply, it's almost suffocating.

He takes a breath, releasing it like a shaky sigh before starting up again, "over the next few weeks after that, she would sneak into my room late at night. She lived with us at the time so it wasn't hard for her to navigate her way towards me. To search for me even when I was hiding. She'd find me.
She would touch me and use her hands to guide mine to touch her. I didn't understand, I tried to act cool with it, but just like any young boy, I had crushes on girls at school. I never looked at Josephine. It went from her being my aunt to her shoving my hand down her pants in the matter of two weeks. To her practically hunting me down in the matter of three, and then her saying she'd commit suicide if I didn't claim her in the matter of four."

He cleared his throat, his hands trembling.
Holding his hands tighter, I catch his attention. "It's okay, just take your time. You don't need to rush with me." I whisper.