Dear birth giver,
I can't pretend anymore like I feel you care
Your around when it's convenient for you ,but when I need you
You're not there
When my sister went so did your phone calls
And your performance of love that you masquerade
For 'Mother of the Year' charades
I'm sorry I'm not messing up enough for your love or attention
I'm not like my sister or brother
Who you give all your pieces of love to
They eat it up
Smiling at the table
Meanwhile I'm on my hands and knees trying to collect scraps like a stray dog
But I come up empty
And I don't receive hand outs
I've been trying to adjust to the fact you don't care ,but every time
Something else comes up with you
I'm sucked back into your void of despair
You don't know the time or place
Attention you seek
I replay the day the day my sister was in the hospital over and over in my head
She had downed a bottle of pills
She just wanted to sleep
We drove dead silent from here to there hoping when we got there we'd still here her heart beat
Her laying in the bed whiter than the sheets little kids use to play ghost on Halloween
And then my mother not dropping one tear
Tried to give me my birthday present and got upset when I said,' not here.'
And shall I go on about all of the lies
How you said you never knew what my brother did?
How you didn't beat my brother when he was a kid?
How you were sorry you never saw me when I lived a block away except for once a day every couple if months?
But even though you cause trauma in my brain
Your the one I feel sorry for because you don't even realize how you hurt me because everytime I try to explain you brush me off
Because you couldn't fucking possibly do anything wrong...
***************❤️❤️
YOU ARE READING
A Poem A Day Keeps the Brain On Vacay
PuisiThis is a collection of poems.Any and pretty much every genre.I will try to write poems everyday or a bunch in one ,but it may not always happen! Hope you enjoy! :)
