I hit my desk with my fists. Why can't I just say it? Why do I have to be so afraid of my feelings? Why can't I just say Desiree Rosella Langue I love you I might be in love with you . You what? I heard a familiar voice behind me I turned around fac...
I couldn't believe it was already December. Where the fuck did time go?! Oh, and did I mention that's when I took Desiree out for our second date. If I told you she didn't make me nervous even if it was our second date, I'd be lying through my teeth. She's just so, ugh, beautiful and I can't get over how amazingly sweet she is. Did I tell you that the week prior she threw a benefit concert to help save the koalas. She knows how much I love them but she did it because she loves all animals.
It was early afternoon which meant I had time but this was our second date and I wanted to do something romantic. I went over to Sam's and knocked repeatedly till he answered.
"Whoa dude, chill. What's with the excessive knocking?" He asked.
"I need your help. I'm nervous and I need you to help me calm down." I spoke with my nervousness basically dripping off of me.
"OK, OK damn! What's got you all worked up?" He asked with his eyebrows furrowed
"Well, you remember how I told you I'm taking Dez out for our second date?" I started, trying to calmly explain the reason behind my anxiety.
"Yeah. Why?" He nodded.
"Tonight's the night." I told him.
He let me in and we sat down on the couch. My legs were bouncing nervously despite all my tries to keep myself calm.
"You really like her don't you?" He asked.
"Yeah I do. She's just so sweet and amazing, Sam. She's sweet, kind, caring, funny, outgoing, talented, adventurous and-." I was cut off. "OK, I get it." Sam chuckled. I continued, "I know I've only known her for almost a year now, but I know, you know? I feel sparks when I kiss her. Like fireworks."
"Whoa wait, you've kissed her?!" He smirked. I feel my face getting red.
"It's when I touch her, I feel all tingly. And when she smiles my heart skips a beat. And when she's sad I just want to hold her till she tells me to leave." I keep gushing on and on.
"Does she know this?" He asks that question as if it's the most obvious thing.
"No, I wouldn't know how to tell her." I admit, looking down at the floor.
"Make it romantic, but not too cheesy. You figure out the rest."
I gave it some thought, trying to come up with something worth mentioning. "I could take her to where we first met." I said after a long pause.
"That sounds like a great idea." Sam agreed.
We hung out for a bit. After a while, I decided to text Dez two hours beforehand.
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She told me once, if we are going out some where nice or out partying to let her know two hours beforehand.
"Just remember, if you hurt her, Kevin is gonna kill you." Sam told me as a send-off message in front of the door. He walked away but before he went inside his apartment I spoke up, stopping him in his tracks. "I definitely know that." I heard him chuckle. He walked in his apartment and I shut my door. I looked at the time. 4:45. Hmm, I guess I'll watch some TV till 6:45.
