Train my heart

Kiss

Chan

I heard screams and shouts, but all I could focus on was Felix. He looked so shocked.

"Boys your mics are on!" I listen to our manager and I rip my headset off. "Wait chan what are you doing you're meant to be in stage-"

I didn't listen I just went straight for Felix. As I got closer to him I took off his headset carefully. He just stared at me in disbelief.

"I love you..."

He kept quiet and I felt my heart become weaker as the silence remained...

"Felix I love you.. so much"

Nothing.

"Please say something.. please"

Still no response just a stare, but wait...

He was crying, he had small crystals forming in his eyes.

"Felix.."

I wiped the tears off of his face. He looked so pure and amazing.

"Just say anything.."

"Boys we're cancelling the show! Everyone back in the cars and we'll sort this mess out once we get back to the dorms! Now go!"

I swear I saw Felix's mouth move to speak, but be was quickly got dragged in an opposite direction from me and we were separated once more.

What is this game... why can't I just be with Felix.. is this a game to you God? Is this a punishment for realising too late!

"Cham come on let's go.. and we'll talk when we get back t-"

"No.."

The words slipped out of my mouth but they felt right. It felt right to go against my management.. I knew what they were going to do, I knew they were trying to pull me and Felix apart...

And I can't let that happen. I'm the person who should look after Felix and be his hero.. not a coward.

"What did you-"

"I said no.. now tell me where Felix is!"

I yank my hand out of my managers hold and he looks at me with worried eyes.

"He's been taken to JYP.."

Shit.. I know what's going for happen...

"Okay so take me to him. I'm the one who caused this mess not Felix."

My manager nods hesitantly and guides me to another car the was situated outside the arena.

"God Chan you're going to get us all in trouble one day.. but thank the high heavens JYP sees you as a son otherwise your career would be over"

I jump in the car and my manager speeds down the busy streets and swerves down the right lanes.

"Okay now sort this out. Felix is too cute for JYP to ruin."

I nod then run out of the car, I can't let anything happen to Felix.

So I had to run.. I ran as fast s I could onto JYP's office and there he was...

In tears...

"Chan? What are you doing here, go back to the dorm-"

"What did you do to him?!"

I lost it.. seeing Felix in tears, looking like his whole world had just fallen apart.

"Chan.. d..don't worry.."

I saw Felix try to wipe his tears away, but I could tell by the look in his eyes he wasn't, actually I could tell he was trying to be strong...

"Mr Park what did you do?!"

I try once more to get a response from JYP...

"You already know what I had to do Chan... my idols aren't aloud to date.. so one of you had to go.."

Anger filled me and I felt like I was about to lose my mind.

"Why Felix? Felix isn't in love with me... we aren't even dating! I'm the one who's in love! I'm the one who was careless! Not him!"

JYP slammed his hands on the table and walked over to me and slapped me in the face.

"All I've done I'd protect you Bang Chan and this is how you repay me?! By wanting to through your whole career down the drain for a boy?!"

I looked at Felix and I saw him sat scared in his chair. The way he looked at me made me heart cry..

"He isn't some boy.. he's my best friend and... and my soulmate. I know this because after all we've been through we are still together and I won't let some one like you get between us!"

I shout at JYP and he takes an unexpected step back.

"Okay... if this is how you feel then let's wait until the press hears about this... I'll see which one of you breaks... my moneys on Felix"

He sits back down and tells Felix and I to leave.

I quickly grab Felix's hand and take him out with me. We wonder down the streets of Seoul just he two of us hand in hand.

I knew Felix wanted to let go every time some one would pass but I don't let him.. I didn't care if anyone saw us. I don't care what JYP says...

All I know is if Felix leaves I go with him.. I'm never going to leave him.

"You didn't have to do that.."I look down to Felix as he looks up to me with saddened eyes. "Chan do you realise we've put our whole group on the line... all of our brothers dreams on the line..."

I saw how ashamed Felix looked and he could contain his self hatred as he hit his head whilst crying and mumbling insults to himself.

"Felix stop... hey lix stop. Felix stop!" I grab his hand to stop him from hurting himself and I cup his cheeks to comfort him. "We haven't done anything wrong... it was an accident, and if our fans are true fans they would stand by our sides and love us no matter what."

I kiss Felix's forehead and I see a small blush spread across his cheeks.

"I just feel selfish.. I'm always ruining things for the boys.."

I ruffle his hair and the wrap my arms around him tightly to give him a hug.

"You are not selfish Felix.. you are perfect... that's why I love you.."

I whisper the last bit in his ear and I feel him tense up... then I remember he never said anything back... what happens if he doesn't like me back..

"Sorry Felix.. I shouldn't have said that.."

I slowly let go and create a distance between me and Felix...

"Wait!" I feel Felix's small hand grab my shirt and gently pull me back. "I... I never told you how I felt.. well.. chan I.. I um... like you too..."

I feel myself grow happier and a smile spread across my face.

"Really?"

He nods shyly and I feel my heat t do a flip. Why is he so cute?

I hold his face him my hands and lean down to quickly connect our lips in a small kiss. I see him smile shyly and his blush go a brighter red... so what does no do when they see such a cute thing.

They kiss it a thousand times more,

I litter Felix's face with small innocent kisses that made him giggle and smile... and let me tell you...

I couldn't be more happier...