Journal of Experiences: A moment in our lives

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Dear friend,

Today I want to writt about my best gift. My little sister, Luísa. She was born seven years ago and since then I can't think how would have been my . It's like in my eighteen years living without her, nothing made sense.

Maybe it's weird to read this, but actually I don't know how describe the wonder that was realizing this dream. I always wanted to have a sister, or brother. I grew up with this dream, although I already had two older half-sisters.

Having a child in a family iss always special, but I feel that Luísa is different. It seems like she came to us just to make our family happy. To live these seven years together with this baby – always my baby -, it's a new discovery every day. The first step, first word, first day at school, everything so special.

Sometimes when I look the old pictures, when she really was a baby, I think how everything passed quickly, but in the same time, I expect for her to become a teenage and tell me her secrets, and crushes. I want to be a reference to her of human, and teach so many things of life.

I love spending my time with her, I love remembering the kids play, and learn new things too. I really love when she arrives from school and ask where I am, or when I'm not home, and she says that misses me. It's a feeling so pure!

It's funny I say all this, it's like everything was planned. BUT NO!!! The pregnancy of Luísa was totally a surprise. My parents didn't expect a new baby, everybody was shocked with the news. My mom just did the test because her friend was joking telling her that she was pregnant. Thus, to play in her face that it was "impossible" for her to be pregnant.

Days later, my mom was very nervous, because the test result arrived. I remember that she didn't wait for the right time. She called very early for the lab. When she called, a woman answered. My mom tell the request number to the clerk. A while later, the clerk says to my mom the level of Beta HCG. My mom asked to repeat! She didn't believe it!! She asked the clerk to explain the values, and why her level was so right!

This time, my mom couldn't talk on the phone anymore and asked me to talk with the clerk. So, I asked her the level of Beta HCG and I could understand that yes, my mom was pregnant. Before I finished the call, my mom was crying. When I say to her that she really was pregnant, she collapsed! And for several days, she just crying! I was scared too, but I needed stay calm.

Nowadays we laugh a lot, because isn't normal a daughter to "comfort" a mom because she was pregnant. In that moment we didn't have idea how was wonderful having a baby in the family.

I could write about this for hours, but now I need to sleep! We see each other another day, my friend.

XoXo, Jessika.