My Thoughts On Paper

When I'm alone

I can't listen to our song

My heart feels heavy

Knowing you swear by every lyric

All the words

Make you think of me

But when I listen

I don't think that it's me

I hate being like this

Why do you ignore me

When I know you look at your phone every second

I've seen you do it

I don't wanna sound stupid

Am I asking for too much?

When your friends always come

Just a little bit more above me

It hurts so much

Thinking you are leaving me

All I want is a little bit of you

I just want you to try

I feel like

I am giving you my all

Is it bad

That I think you're not trying at all

I have this darkness

Sometimes you are my light

But even you

Bring darkness to me

Don't feel sorry

It's everyone too

I know I need help

But I won't admit it

I say okay

But ain't that what we all say?

I want you to be happy

So I never raise my voice

I always say it's okay

It's fine

But you don't know

The nights I spend crying

While you always smiling

I look at my bed

Where we had laid

The passenger in my car

Where the music we sang

Now you are gone

You say you love me

What does love mean

Am I asking too much?

Just a goodnight call would do

But you don't think the way I do

I'm glad you are happy

Even if it takes some of my light away

I'm in this darkness

In my room crying

You off somewhere

I know that your laughing

I say things that I do

When I really want is you

I want you all the time

I'm selfish

I'm jealous

You put people before me

But you've known them longer

Why should I cry

Knowing the reason why

It's me

I wouldn't want to be with me

Either