indirects // a.b

2.9

i sometimes feel like the wind
cold yet
easy
breezy
but definitely not a beautiful covergirl
why does your face
make my heart race
why do your words
and smile
make me so at home
all i want is your attention
but i know only one girl occupies your thoughts
and it hurts to know that girl isn't me
i know i shouldn't complain,
i did this to myself!
i told my friend to pursue her feelings, and i had told you to pursue yours!
you guys found each other!
i'm proud of you and her, but i wish i hadn't done this to myself
i wish i wasn't so selfish

i wish i was yours instead