indirects // a.b

3.5

i want you to kiss my scars
i want you to tell me i'm the best thing that's ever happened to you
i want you to validate me

this makes me sound selfish
i know that already

i want you to hug me
i want you to tell me i'm worth it
i want you to tell me you care about me

this makes me sound selfish
i know that already

i want you to understand me
i want you to reach out
i want you to kiss me

this makes me sound selfish
do i know that already?

i read stories of people who are loved and are in love
i read stories of people who care about each other
i read stories of acceptance and true love

does that make me selfish
if i long for the same?

i want you to hold me in the dark
i want you to tell me you love me
i want you to hold me like you never want to let me go

and that's just so terribly selfish of me
i know that in my heart

i know you don't care about me that way
i know you probably never will
i just wish things were different
and that someday ...

someday...

i want you to save me too.