Sanity

60: Our Ending?

Jungkook POV

"He can't be gone! I told him that he can't leave and I'll always have him with me! I'll lose my sanity without him!" I cried in the EMS room as Jin and Yoongi told me he was gone for good.

They covered his body in the white cloth and left me to cry on my own.

"Do you know how much I love you Park Jimin?! You're worth more than anything in the world and I can't have a world without you... please wake up for me.... just one last time and you'll never regret it again... PLEASE!!" I sobbed as I held his lifeless hand.

I got no response and after a few minutes, I picked myself up and went to my room. Daehyun and Junghyun found out and were being comforted by the other boys.

I was alone as requested.

My sanity was on its last edge and it wasn't keeping any longer. I was ready to kill in broad daylight and not care about who saw anymore. I had nothing to kill for, nothing to pursue in life.

I cried. I screamed. I drank. I smoked. I starved. I killed with no purpose. I fought.

But I didn't have him anywhere with me....

Time Skip: Few Weeks Later 

Meeting between Jungkook and cult members

"As you all may have heard, Park Jimin has left us. Because of this, I will have to dismantle the cult."

Everyone went into shock at my straightforward statement.

"But sir.... we don't know how to..." People kept saying.

"I dont have a purpose to lead this cult anymore. The one person that kept me sane is now dead, and I have no meaning in life to keep it going. I will keep contact with some of you, but for the most part... I'm off the grid."

We all discussed what our next few steps are going to be and finished the meeting with a depressing note. We all sat there, trying to calm down about how we lost the one thing we had a muse for.

Until...

Someone walked in.

"Dude. I wake up panicking cause I'm covered in white sheets and I fell off the bed thinking... am I in fucking heaven? But let's skip that... why are you holding a meeting without me bOi?"

The room was silent and with pure shock.

"What's wrong? Why do you all look like you just saw a ghost?"

"But are you a ghost? You're heart monitor flatlined and you were dead on life support for weeks. You died and came back..." he looked at Hoseok weirdly and shrugged.

"I don't know what you guys are talking about. I remember getting in a fight, and then blacking out... oh shit... am I supposed to be in the basement locked up? Oops."

No one responded.

"Are you all on drugs or something? Like answer back." I tackled him in a hug and cried softly on his shoulder.

He was shocked at the fact I was crying but still comforted me. "It's okay. I'm here now, right?"

"I thought you left me forever... I love you too much... I can't handle you leaving me like that..."

"I-I love you too. Don't worry, I'm not leaving you again... I promise..."

I kissed him and everyone went uWu around us. Daehyun covered Junghyun's eyes as me and Jimin kissed deeper.

I have my baby back.

I'll be with him forever. And I'll love him even more. He choose me back and he won't get an escape from me now.

We sat alone together in my office. He sat on my lap, resting his head onto my shoulder. I rubbed my fingers through his soft black hair.

"You know there isn't an escape now, right?" I whispered into his ear, placing a soft kiss underneath of it.

"I'm not planning on going anytime soon~" He kissed me again and again and I felt so content.

"We are getting married, I don't care what you say anymore." He giggled and nodded softly. I smiled brightly at him and he just cuddled me more.

"I love you Jimin."

"I love you more, Jungkook."

In the end, we were both a lil fucked up in the heads for each other. I manipulated him, and bOi, he manipulated me. We hated each other and tried killing each other, but ended up protecting one another at the end of it. He was just the FBI agent against me, and I was the cult leader insanely obsessed with him. Yes, there was a whole bunch of shit that we went through, but we accomplished it together. All that matters is that we love each other, and the drama of the world isn't a problem for us anymore.

I was the cult leader, and the god damn FBI agent was the only lock in my sanity.

Ironic, I know.

My sanity had one control— Park Jimin.

And it's only going to be him.

Forever.