17 Again

*Part 13*

The looks of my two friends in front of me were making goosebumps crawl up my spine, sending shivers to form across my thin arms feeling like light pinches on each free space of my pale skin. Their eyes were deep, arrowed and focused as I tried to dig the picture deeper into the end of my hoodie. Almost as if I were trying to make it disappear, ease it into existence. The most intimidating look out of the two was Chloe's. Her thin eyebrows were parted only lightly, her right brow barely raised as she kept darting back at me and to where my arm was barely seen.

"Okay Hen, what's going on." The female asked pointing at my right arm. Her long polished nails directed straight towards the end of my sweatshirt. Where my arm was dangling from the side.

"You know, there's really nothing going on." I shrugged chuckling sarcastically as I got up. As the sentence escaped my mouth it felt dry and dirty. Because not only am I lying to my two friends, but I'm starting to feel the storm of guilt rise up again as I felt such at ease with lying. Some say that they wish it were that easy to lie. But for me it felt like a curse. As if a witch put a hex on me when I was younger. I've done it way to many times not to be comfortable around it. The times I've had back home with Charlotte started to linger in my mind like a tsunami. Every affairs I've had with the different women, every time I've said that I've been looking for jobs, and every time I've said that I'm not happy about her new promotions in each jobs she's gotten. And why is that I'm feeling guilty about it all?

Because all that has brought me into a point in my life where she doesn't even believe it when I say that I love her.

Because I do, badly.

I was just a dumb idiotic prick who didn't know how to say no. Moving along with it. I didn't even think that she'd find out. The first time I cheated on her I still remember it as if it occurred yesterday. Its kind of sad that I remember exactly when, who and why. That day not only did I broke my girls heart, but also my best friends.

Flashback

As Chloe reached her arm out and removed my jacket hastily I couldn't help but to groan in desire. She was teasing me at an uncontrollable level.
As I opened my eyes slowly, I was instantly met with a picture of Charlotte and I on our kitchen counter. I was hypnotized by the picture. I stared as we both looked so happy, the snow that was on the ground and the little snowman we made together in the background of the cold afternoon causing me to pull away from Chloe abruptly. The worries and memories flooded my mind making me rethink my decisions. Do I really want to take this path?

"Chloe I don't know if I can do this.  I'm putting 2 friendships on the line here." I pleaded with her making myself shift back unto the sofa of Charlotte's and I's dorm room. Chloe smoothed her hair back gently, making her long hair move to the back of her head as she blew out. Her thick little bubbly sound that came along with it made me feel slightly guilty.
"Well Henry, I like you and you like me. So what's there to lose?" She asked gently crawling up towards me like a hungry fox. I couldn't help but to stare into her grassy coloured eyes. As much as I wanted to deny her statement of me liking her, I resisted against it. Starring at her lips I realized they weren't as good as Charlotte's. They weren't as full and plump as I wanted them to be, but as sexually frustrated I was at the moment I was able to ignore all those little angels telling me what I was doing was wrong. Way wrong.

I forcefully connected my lips unto hers. Her tongue wrapped up over mine causing me to moan lightly. Taking off my white shirt she rested her hand on my chest as I laid her down quickly on the sofa.
It didn't help that Charlotte was on code red this week.

Just then, as I started to take off Chloe's shirt I didn't realize that someone walked in the room. It was until a loud high pitched scream ringed and throbbed on the whole surface of my head. I turned my body around only to see a full teared eyed Charlotte and an a-gaped mouthed Jasper. Both of them looking at us with mixed emotions in their eyes. I quickly got off of Chloe to stand up at my full height and stare both at Jasper and Charlotte.

Charlotte's mouth trembled as if she were a puppy on a cold winters night. Her eyes were glossy making her eyes seem like shiny glass. My face formed into a depressed frown as I stared at my girlfriend and best friend. "Henry, Chloe how could you?" Charlotte's voice cracked as she stared at the both of us. Her head lightly shook as she kept switching to look at the both of us. Jasper shook his head and clenched his jaw. His jawline was firm and locked tight. Almost as if, if I were to touch it, it would feel like a brick.

"Come on Charlotte, let's go." Jasper shook his head disappointed. As his hand connected to the handle of the wooden door he spoke without turning around. "We're over Chloe, and so are we Henry." He sighed before exiting with Charlotte.

Chloe and I stood there taking in what happened in shock. A single tear slipped down the side of my cheek as if I just encountered a death of a loved one.

End of Flashback

Getting up from my seat I packed up my things along the way and ran out of the crowded cafeteria. Heading out I couldn't help but to hear Jasper and Chloe yelling out my name, calling out to me as If I was their lost kitten. I ignored them as I encountered Charlotte talking to her boy toy with a wide happy smile. I couldn't help but to put a toxic snark on my face but I quickly brushed it off as I opened the school main doors and arrived outside. The cold fall air hit the side of my face like a sticker. The coldness made my cheek slightly burn but I ignored it as I sat by the school welcoming sign. I breathed out letting an air I didn't know I was containing set free. Walking over to the sign I payed no attention to my current surroundings. That means the people walking by, the crowd of teenagers walking in and out and lastly the sound of the gush of wind the cars put out as they passed by.

My mind was focused on only one thing.

'Time Jerker.' I whispered to myself in my head. My mind went blank for a second, thinking back, taking a short trip into something called  'Memory lane.'  Thinking back on all the stuff I went threw it seemed hard to find that one bit of information I need. Every time I thought of something my mind instantly went back to the events of earlier at the cafeteria. I shook my head not wanting to fully distract myself. I needed to know the location of the time Jerker and I need that bit of information right now!

Suddenly I thought of something. My eyes widen and my body froze, not only because of the coldness outside but because of my discovery. "Time Square" I whispered to myself distractingly. A smile spreading widely across my face as it felt well deserved. Getting up leaving the cold seat alone once again I started running, running as if my life depended on it.

Because at this moment, it did.

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Oh... well um hey! Thanks for making it this far! 😊