voicemail

anniversary

(uh a lil tw for this chapter)

8th january

"i'm here.

here.

with you,
i think.

i went to the graveyard earlier, and cried. because i miss you, i fucking miss you.

and i was stood by your grave and staring at how your name on your grave and your name on my wrist matched exactly, down to the font,

and then i realised i've been so miserable since you died because...

well...

i don't think i want to do this without you.

no, let me rephrase that-
i can't do this without you.

i'm stood on the side of this motorway;

i could just dance out into the middle of the road,

and let someone take my life.

take my own life.

the way you did.

then would i see you again?

y-

...

you know what,

i think i'm going to do it.

...

that's it.

i'm going to do it.

i love you, ruby,

and i'll be seeing you very

very

soon.

here i go,

look-

here-

i

go-

screech

"

an: NOT the last chapter