Candy pops - Kihyun [✔] (ᵉⁿᵍ)

십사 ⁱ ᵈᵒⁿᵗ ˡⁱᵏᵉ ᵘ

« I wont even start to like you.»
Kihyuns eyes started filling with tears and whidned in shook. For sure he understood it the other way round.
But I couldnt even say what I actually meant to say. Not in a situation beeing half naked.
That made me decide to just give him a warm smile.

But Ki seemed to be completely confused, staring at me dressing the whole time.
He still stared when I wasnt even standing there.

«So you hate me?» a whisper escaped his mouth.
«Why do you need to think negative?»
I made a few steps into his direction and stroke his head softly. He just looked down onto the ground.
«Kiki isn't it obvious for you what I feel when I dont like you and even tough not hate you?» I pulled up his chin so he had to look into my eyes.

His eyes were glittering full of tears.
«I just cant admit it. Its not right to feel like that.» he said in a broken whisper.
«Ki its fine.» I simply said in a low voice.
So why did he ask me to sleep with him if he tought that this feelings arent right?

I kissed his cheek softly.
He wrapped his arms around my neck and energetically pulled me closer.I stopped breathing for a moment.
This kid made me feel different in every situation.

»Kiki?«
He looked into my eyes questioning.
»I love you.« I whispered huskily. My heart skipped one beat after another.

His face turned in one second to dark tomato red. But he just kept staring at me.
»Its not a secret anymore.« I mumured.
»How can you love someone like me?«
»Because its you.« I gave him a gentle smile »Lets not try to explain the science of love.«

He just stood around and watched out of the window, so I stepped forward and stroke his hair.
»I'm childish and dumb, look for a better one. A wife, so you can have an own family. Do what adults do.«
»Kihyun you already are family, I don't need anything else.« I whispered, leaning my head onto his shoulder.
»Don't be mad at me but, I can't be your boyfriend. I'm sorry.« Kihyun looked down trough his feet.

»Alright Kiki don't blame yourself.« I said giving him a small smile in the reflection of the window and let go of him.
I was sure he felt for me too. No I wasn't sure, I knew it. That was kinda obvious, but we both didn't know how to handle the situation.
But it was okay for me. He should take the amount of time he needed.

» I'll make us some food. « I headed to the door and made my way into the kitchen.
Kihyun followed me after a few seconds.
He sat down at the table and played with sharky.
» Can you tell me why sharky is so special to you? « I asked curiosly.

He went quiet and his eyes focused on the little plush shark.
» I got it from my parents when I was born. « he whispered. His eyes filled with tears within seconds.
» May I ask what happened to them?«

I'm very sorry for not posting for so long, my private life is a completely mess
Thanks for staying with this story until now(｡・//ε//・｡)