A Once In a Lifetime Love

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Happy Birthday to the Queen herself Nicki Minaj !!!! Love Her So Much, okay so This update is pretty much a present for y'all just cause it's her day I had too... Hope You all enjoy.

Sn: this was wrote and ready to be released yesterday but I fell asleep and didn't get the chance to release it. (sad face) but here you are...

XOXOXO

Queeny

Cocaine

"How you think this dress look, I'm not really feeling this one too much." I ask doing a little spin for Yanni. We were getting dress for our date night with the guys, even though we were only going to Scrapps place he demanded we dress up and look sexy so here we were.

I decided on a nude Chanel bodycon dress with diamond crystals all over it and gold open toe stilettos, I finished the look with a white and gold Chanel handbag, a Rolex and some diamond bangles. Yanni wore a little black dress that draped off her shoulders showcasing just enough boobs to have a nigga drooling with black stilettos.

"I actually like that one better than the red one, your ass look fat I can tell you that much." She smacked my ass making it jiggle. "So, I've been meaning to ask have you and Scrapp you know, done it yet?" I shook my head no. "Why not?"

"I don't know Yanni maybe we haven't gotten to that part of our relationship yet." I half lied. Scrapp and I had been spending a lot of time alone together and were at the point where we've talked about sex but honestly, I still wasn't sure how I felt about it after what happened with Bronx. He was involuntary my first and last experience. However, Scrapp assured me that he would wait for me but even I wasn't sure how long that would take, and I didn't wanna have him waiting on me forever.

"I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable I know you're still trying to process everything that happen with you know who." I nodded my head silently thanking her for not saying his name. "Just forget I even brought it up." Yanni apologized.

"No, it's cool, I'm actually glad you did because I've been kind of freaking out about it, I mean Scrapp was really nice and understanding when I told him about Bronx and what he had done to me. He assured me that he didn't see a broken woman when we looked at me but truthfully there's a part of me that's scared out my fucking mind to have sex." I admitted. "It's been three years and one time at that." I reminded her.

"Scared of what?" Yanni questioned.

"That I'm not ready mentally, what if I freak out and have a flash back and can't go through with it, or what if I just can't do it all together?" I questioned, thinking of every possible way things could go wrong. "I mean he's giving me head, but we haven't gone all the way and I'm just nervous that I may not be fully ready."

"Then tell him that, you just said that he was understanding and nice I'm sure he'll understand Caine, you're freaking out for nothing." I took a deep breath letting her words sink in. "If you're not ready then you're not ready, you've been through some shit most women don't ever come back from but here you are still pushing forward strong as ever." Pulling my best friend into a tight hug as I silently thanked her for always being there for me. 

"I don't know what I'd do without you."

"You'll never have to find out, now let's go before these niggas started blowing up our phones." We made sure we had everything we needed before heading out.