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i kissed a girl & i.. actually really freakin liked it

STORY TIMEEEEE !!!!

so i've thought i was bi for about three years now but i was never really sure cause i was still young and didn't have much experience in the area or anything. that is, until this past year.

so on our first day of summer break this year, my friend and i (let's call her jane) decided to go backroading all day because we had nothing better to do. (i know backroading is super southern and redneck but don't roast me). so we're driving around for about thirty minutes or so when this boy (let's call him luke) calls jane and asks what she's doing and stuff. well she tells him that she's with me and we're just driving down backroads and not doing much. so he invites us over to his river lot for us to come swim and drink a little.

when we get there it's him and tons of his friends and they're all pretty much drunk except luke and his best friend. so jane goes in the water to swim with them and stuff but i just stay on the river bank cause i don't like water or swimming very much. well one of luke's super hot friends (let's call him matt) comes and sits by me and starts talking to me and stuff and he offers me a drink. it wasn't the first time i've drank so i took it and started taking swigs out of it while i talk to him. he asks me how i'm doing and is being super sweet and flirty while we both drink and everything. all completely innocent, right?

HAHA.

after a few drinks i end up pretty tipsy and am definitely halfway drunk. matt decides to scoot closer to me, which i don't pay any mind to. after a few more drinks he puts his arm around my waist, his hand going a little low. i kinda nudge him and laugh a few times but when he doesn't move i just give up cause he isn't really doing anything anyways. we continue talking and stuff for a couple more minutes and then matt starts LEANING IN TO KISS ME.

i was obviously starting to freak out because this super hot dude was about to kiss me but right before he did we hear a loud scream. so we both look up to where it came from and we see jane running towards us through the water and luke running right along after her. matt turns to me and is like "wtf?" and i just shrug my shoulders and i turn back just in time to get freAKING TACKLED BY JANE. as soon as i do all i hear is luke yelling, "jane, don't do it!"

before i can even blink i feel jane kissing me and my face immediately flushes. my eyes go like super wide and i just freeze. when she leans up off of me she just giggles and goes back into the water with the rest of luke's friends.

LEAVING ME A BLUSHING MESS ON THE RIVERBANK WITH MATT AND LUKE.

i just look up at luke with my mouth gaping open and he's like "yeah, i guess i should've warned you." i started stuttering super bad trying to just change the topic but when i turn back to matt he's just like "i would pay to see that again. your reaction was priceless." i blush even more and shove his arm a little bit. we spent the rest of the day there at the river before going to luke's to get food before jane took me home.

then when jane took me home it was super dark (around 10pm) and we were sitting in her car and all of the sudden she just turns the music off. i asked her what was up and she was just staring at me. then all of the sudden she just sighs and says "you're really pretty." my face got super hot and i just laughed nervously and tucked a piece of hair behind my ear (which is what i do when i'm nervous). before i could answer her she reached forward, grabbed the back of my neck, and kisSED ME.

I ACTUALLY SQUEALED OUT LOUD AS SOON AS SHE KISSED ME, GUYS I STG I GOT SO FREAKING EMBARRASSED.

she pulled away laughing and rubbed her thumb across my cheek and was like "you really are too cute"

then we proceeded to make out for the next hour and a half haha.

ANYWAYS, that's the story of the first time i ever kissed a girl and i actually liked it a lot.