Feelings

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long time no talk, the semester is over....i'm just glad it is.
this semester has been one of the toughest semesters for me mentally, but i also grew a lot. I learned a lot and am maturing as well i would say. I gained new friendship and lost some as well, met new people did, new things.
A lot has happened since the last time i wrote which was about crackhead. he came back for thanksgiving break and we planned on hanging out but we just never did. i was caught up on him once again, however not as bad as before. but i met this new guy. i call him petty kween, because he is. we have so much in common yet we're so different. at first it was just suppose to be a hook up because i was bored and high one night and in the mood. then one night lead to another, then him coming over everyday for like a week straight. each time we talked and got to know more about one another. i wouldn't necessarily say i was falling for him each time but i did start to like him a little more.
i never had a boyfriend before, and every time i've come close to i somehow screw it up, or the other person likes me when i don't like him. or i just catch feelings too late. i feel like this time it will be different.
i hope i don't mess this one up because he took me on a date the day before he left to a different state for christmas.