i'm sad.......and i don't know why i am.
i just recently got a my very own puppy, i'm doing good i'm school, and got a bf. nothing it wrong.
this pandemic is just forcing me to be alone with my thoughts and over thinking almost everything.....
i hate it. i absolutely hate it, i don't want to be sad like i was last winter, that was the lowest point of my life.
also i'm really struggling with body issues rn and no one knows that. Yeah i make jokes about be being chubby and gaining weight and that stuff but no one really knows.
The quarantine is making me not eating happen because i just sleep or when i do eat i throw it up. which i know is absolutely bad and i should probably talk to someone about it. but at this point i don't want to.
I feel like if i do talk to someone then idk i just will feel judged or making them worry.
I'm the type of person to not want attention to me if it involves them worrying about me and asking how i'm doing. I hide my emotions so i keep them in. so i end up going through things like this where i just feel sad and overthink things or feel self conscious.
Also i compare myself to so many people, like my friends, people i know, the girls my bf had a thing with, social media. EVERYTHING.
It's just something i automatically do and i hate that i can't be confident or happy with myself/body.
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Nonfiksithis will be like journal entries for me. you can chose to read them or not. but their about my life including; college, parties, love life, family, friends..etc.
