your smile, i missed it - ShinKami

Chapter 3

I don't know what to think about the guy called Kaminari. He looks like he is always happy. And why is he so nice to me? Normally everyone else hates me and my quirk. But I'm used to it and started to hate myself too. Maybe he's just trying to be nice. Well it isn't really nice to wear a hoodie from someone else without asking and walking out of the room WITH your hoodie. At least I'm finally alone.

This room is so messy, I can't even see the floor. How is that even possible? I knew that Pikachu likes yellow but I didn't expected  everything to be yellow. The walls are full with photos of Kaminari and his friends. I think the girl with the pink fluffy hair is called Mina, the boy with the weird elbows Sero, the read head  Kirishima and there is the explosion boy Bakugou. They look so happy, even Bakugou is smiling and not this kind of smile when he barely kills Midorya. Maybe I can get friends-no. Nobody wants to be my friend and I forgot how it feels like to have friends or smile a true smile. I'm not even sure if I ever had friends. Everyone was and is scared of me, what makes it a lot harder to get a hero. But I am doing my best.

It started to get dark outside and in the room next to me I heard Uraraka laughing at Iida. What should I do now. Trying to sleep? I know it isn't going to work but I don't have any better ideas. Evertime I am trying to sleep I am thinking about the people I know. Would they be sad if I'm dead, would they be happy or would they even notice it? I don't know, but why is it so important for me? I don't have anything why I should live or why I should laugh. But on the other side I'm always hoping that there is somebody who needs me and wants me. Suddenly I heard a loud noise in front of me. It was Kaminari. "Everything alright?" I asked him

He screamed and his eyes looked like he have seen a ghost. "Don't you dare to scare me like that again!" His voice was cracking when he saw my face. "Haven't you got sleep? It's late" He looked worried about me "Everything alright, you don't have to worry about it" Nobody else cared about me. I don't know what to do, maybe he's just going to sleep. Thanks to my imnosia I usually got 10-20 minutes sleep each night. So I prepared myself for a long night.

Kaminari looked, I don't know, kinda hurted. "Do you have any problems with society or do you just don't like me?" Kaminari asked upset"Just stop it, everything is fine." It hurts to see in his eyes, they were full with pain. But why? Did I have done something wrong? I felt bad for being rude. I wanted to talk to him so badly...