Won't Stop Till We Surrender

Chapter Nineteen (Pt. 1)

~ Oath ~

“WHAT THE BLOODY HELL IS GOING ON!!” I turned around and saw Eleanor, Josh and Harry staring at Louis and I with shocked expressions. Eleanor had tear in her eyes. “Aria, how could you?!?” Eleanor ran out, crying. “Eleanor, wait!” I ran after her. Josh pulled me back gently but spoke harshly. “We’re done.” He said calmly, but firmly. 

I still ran after Eleanor, pretending I didnt hear those brutal words come out of Josh’s mouth. I ran down the hallway and saw her sitting in the lift. As it was about to close, I put my hand inbetween the doors. Eleanor pressed the buttons furiously wanting it to close.

I slid into the elevator, Eleanor turned her back and refused to talk to me. I touched her shoulder, but she shook my hand off. I sighed.

“Okay El. I know you don’t want to talk to me but please just listen. You know I would NEVER do ANYTHING like that to you.” 

“Or so I thought…” Eleanor mumbled, coldly. 

I smirked bitterly, “I have no reason whatsoever to hurt Josh or Louis or you. You are the last person I ever want to get hurt. You have to believe me.” Eleanor turned around slowly, hope swirling in her eyes. 

“So what really happened?” She uttered softly.

“Louis and I were wrestling and he pinned me down on the bed. He kept insisting he would beat me-“

“Typical Lou.” Eleanor giggled quietly, wiping the tears from her eyes.

I let out a small laugh. “So I told him I would win. We were wrestling for nearly 10 minutes and I was out of breath. I collapsed onto him accidentally, our lips touched and that’s when you guys walked in.” I explained to Eleanor. I didn’t realize that I had been crying too. El and I’s friendship meant so much to me. I never wanted to loose her. Ever.

“It was just an accidental kiss and it meant nothing and I’m so so SO sorry. Its okay if you hate me…” I looked down. Eleanor was quiet. When I looked up she tackled me into a hug. We squeezed eachother until we literally could not breathe. 

“Of course I forgive you. But Lou needs a spanking.” Eleanor winked as we walked out of the elevator, our arms locked together. 

“Louis, that’s nothing like you! Why did you do it?” Harry yelled at Louis, while Josh stared blankly ahead.

“I told you we were wrestling!” Louis yelled back. “Why would I cheat on Eleanor, with Aria? When we all know that Josh and Aria are together. Why would I want to hurt El?” Harry was quiet, knowing that Louis was right. 

“El, can I borrow a pair of pajamas?” I nudged Eleanor, ignoring the argument going on a few feet away. “I brought you some clothes.” Josh pointed to a bag beside the bed, with a neutral expression.

“Thanks..” I uttered. Josh wouldn’t even look at me. “Louis and I weren’t kissing. We were wrestling and I fell on him ACCIDENTALLY, our lips touched and that’s when you guys walked in.” I looked into Josh’s eyes.

“Lou and I have no reason to cheat.” I played with Josh’s hands. “So are we okay?” 

“No. I don’t feel like I can trust you anymore, Aria.”

“But I told you Lou-.”

“Its not about that.” Josh cut me off. “At the restaurant  when you bumped into the guy and you told me it was nothing. It was something, you were lying to me, I could tell because of your eyes. I know when you lie to me.”

“Aria, I can’t do this anymore. Goodbye.” Josh got up and made his way to the door. “Josh, wait!” I cried. I couldn’t move, It felt like my body was paralzyed. Eleanor dragged me into Harry’s room. 

She didn’t tell me lies saying “Everything will be okay.” because she knew it wouldn’t, we both knew, we all knew. I cried into her lap. “El, I love him. I don’t know what to do any more.” I couldn’t stop the tears from falling. 

“I’ll never know what love feels like any more  Josh completes me. We’re the birds to the feather.” I quoted Cher Lloyd’s song “Oath”

I think I had fallen asleep on Eleanor’s lap, she had fallen asleep on my back. I had a huge headache, as I had been crying all night. The memories from last night flooded back. And I felt a heavy pain in my chest. I thought heartbreak was just an emotion but it physical. 

I can literally feel my heart breaking into pieces knowing Josh isn’t mine anymore. Knowing that he doesn’t trust me anymore.

I walked out of Harry’s room and saw Harry on the couch. 

“This is all your fault!” I threw a pillow at Harry causing him to jump up and fall off the couch. I ran out of the flat without giving him a chance to react.

Hot tears spilt out of my eyes, as cold air surrounded me. I was still in my dress from dinner last night and I’m pretty my make up had smeared across my face from crying. Our flat was just about 10 minutes away from Harry and Louis’ so I decided to walk there.

I opened the door cautiously, aware that Josh had to record some drums, so most likely he was awake. I peaked through the slightly open bedroom door to see if he was in there. My eyes widened at the sight. I didn’t think it was possible but my heart broke even more. 

Before I walked away, I grabbed a love letter that Josh once wrote to me. It was actually a quote from Stephen King. It read;

“True love, like any other strong and addicting drug, is boring — once the tale of encounter and discovery is told, kisses quickly grow stale and caresses tiresome… except, of course, to those who share the kisses, who give and take the caresses while every sound and colour of the world seems to deepen and brighten around them. As with any other strong drug true first love is really only interesting to those who have become its prisoners.

And, as is true of any other strong and addicting drug, true first love is dangerous.”