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c h a p t e r - e i g h t e e n

CHORONG

2 years later,

I was awake when I heard the door of the house. I took my phone and stared at the time. 3.00 am. I sighed, looking at the ceiling. It's been almost 2 months since I slept here alone. You know, why? Because Suho is obsessed with his works right now that. HE. FORGOT. EVERYTHING! Our important days, wedding anniversary and Star's birthday. I still remembered that Star cried on her birthday because Suho said there's no party. I was like.. she turns 3, she's a kid. What's happening to Suho? I closed my eyes as Suho came into the room. I opened my eyes when he entered the bathroom. I waited for him to come out. Right after he came out, I closed my eyes, pretending to sleep. I felt his arms around my waist.

"Are you awake?"

"Hmm"

"I miss you, baby"

"I miss you too" I murmured.

"Let's play a game"

"What kind of game?" I looked at him, feeling suspicious.

"You know what I mean" he caressed my hair as he gave that loving smile.

I didn't reply and he started. After that, both of us fell asleep in each others' embrace.

Morning,

I opened my eyes and turned to Suho's side. He's not here, again. I sighed, I can't lie to my own self that I missed him like so damn much. I looked at my phone, 7.30 am. I walked away from my bed and went to Chomyeon's room. I saw her sleeping under her duvet. And.. I realized that there was a pink paper bag beside her bed. I took it and smiled as I saw the contents. It's coloring books and stuffs for Chomyeon. I saw a letter in it, I took the pink envelope and read the letter.

Dear Star,

Happy birthday to you, my baby. Daddy is so sorry for shouting at you that day, daddy hope you can forgive me. I know that you will like these. I know you love coloring so much. My baby turns 3, I will try to make a big birthday party for you next year, I promised. And, please tell your mummy that I really love her. I'm sorry for being so busy. Again, happy birthday my daughter.

Lots of love,

Daddy

I closed the letter and put it back in its envelope. I was distracted when I heard Star. She's crying. I hugged her and asked her what happened. She told me that I'm leaving her and Suho. I was shocked, I smiled and promised her that I won't leave her. I helped Star to bath and sent her to her nursery, I have some designing works for today. 

Evening,

I looked at my luggage. I tried to hold my tears but I failed. There's no use anymore. I don't want to torture myself anymore. I took all of my dresses and clothes, putting them in my luggage and bags. I wiped my tears as I zipped my bag. I took a photo from the album and put it in my clutch. I looked around the big room, remembering our memories. The bed, almost every night. I'm going to miss him and Star so much. I couldn't take this anymore. His words from our phone conversation hit me so much.

"Hi honey. Are you still at work?"

"Yes, I am. I got loads of work right now"

"Can.. you come home earlier? Star wants to play with you"

"Wife, no. I'm busy and probably not coming home. Now, off. I'm hanging up"

I took out my belongings except for the bracelet he bought for me on our first date. I left a letter on the dressing table and left the villa. I texted Irene to take care of Star and make sure to fetch her from the nursery. I texted Changsub, said to him that I really love Suho and I asked him to not let Suho find me. I have to go, I can't face this anymore. Kim Junmyeon, I'm going to miss you. I drove to the airport, going for my London flight.

Night,

SUHO

"Star!"

"Suho, you're home" Irene looked at me.

"Irene, what happened? Why did Changsub text me such things?"

"You should ask yourself, Suho. I don't have the answer"

"Daddy.. my nightmare is happening" Star hugged me. I took her in my arms.

"What nightmare, baby?"

"Mummy.. mummy left us"

Star's words hit me hard. Chorong.. Chorong left us? No, she's lying right? My wife isn't leaving us here. She's too precious for me, I can't live without her. I gave Star to Irene, ran to my room. I opened the door, half of Chorong's closet were empty. Her bags aren't here. Where did she go? Shit! I cursed as I remembered our phone conversation this evening. What have you done, Kim Junmyeon? You're really stupid, how can you be so harsh towards her? I looked at the dressing table and saw her beloved bracelet with an envelope. I took the envelope, there was a letter. She left me the letter, I opened and read it.

Kim Junmyeon, the love of my life,

 You can call me idiot if you want. I'm sorry for burdening you through out these 4 years of our marriage. Honey, to be real, I really love you. But, if this is really the end, I will leave. I will back off, and start a new life. You're my first love, Kim Junmyeon. You're my Suho, my guardian. I'm happy with you, and Star. I don't want to burden you anymore, so, let me go. Please, don't find me. Start a new life with our daughter, love her like you love me. You're my only one, Suho. I really love you. I fell for you at our first encounter. I'm sorry I can't be a good and loving for you. I'm really sorry, I love you so much, Kim Junmyeon. Please don't forget about me because I will always be in your heart. I love you, honey.

Lots of love,

Kim Chorong

The letter slipped away from my hands. It's true, Star is not lying. Half of my heart is dead. I can't believe it, why me? Tears fell from my eyes, I had never expected this to happen. My love left me. Suho, you're so stupid! You hurt her! How can I say something like that after what I did with her in the midnight? Her smile is still in my mind, or kisses together, nights on bed, naked together, doing everything together. The bracelet memories hit me hard. Our first date, our wedding, our honeymoon, the day of her giving birth of Star, our first anniversary, going to the amusement park with Star, Taeyeon's wedding, Star turned 1, Kris's birthday party where he propose on Jessica, our third anniversary, her birthday, London trip together. There's so many memories kept with the bracelet. I took it and wore it on my wrist. I hugged Star who ran at me.

"Daddy, don't cry"

"I really love your mummy, Star-ah. I did a big mistake, this all happen because of me. I'm sorry, baby"

"Daddy, this is mummy's favorite bracelet. She said she wore this on the day I was born"

"Yes. Star-ah, let's pack your things"

"Why, daddy?"

"I want to go to Italy. I went there with your mummy once. Let's pack" Star left to her room. Irene and Changsub entered the room. I gave them a weak smile, pretending that I'm okay. They sat beside me, hugging me. I saw tears in Irene's eyes, she was crying. Of course, she is. Chorong is one and only best friend she had for the first time till now. They're like real sisters, Irene really thought of Chorong as her sister. She slapped my face.

"You're a stupid, Suho. You hurt my sister"

"Irene, I'm sorry. I know I did a big mistake. Changsub, I'm really sorry. I don't.."

"No need, Suho. Why are you thinking of Italy right now?"

"I want to calm myself first. I want to prepare everything to find her. This is the only choice I have, bro"

I said as I stood up, packing my stuffs. I have to go away from Korea, Italy is the best place for me. I looked at the bracelet, I will never let go of it until I find Chorong. That's my promise, I thanked them and took my luggage and went to Star's's room. After everyone left the villa, I locked the door and went to my car with Star. I saw her holding the pink paper bag that filled with the birthday presents I gave her. I smiled as we both made our way to the airport. I love you, Kim Chorong. This is not going to be long, I don't want to lose you anymore.