Marvel One-Shots

Comfortably Numb (Angst/Fluff)

Ship: WinterIron (Tony x Bucky)
Summary: Tony has the team watch movies on Saturday night. Steve makes Bucky come and things get interesting.

The first half is what's going on with Bucky. The second half is Winteriron content.

3rd person pov:

When Steve found Bucky. He was living on the streets. He was kicked out of the apartment because he didn't have enough money to pay rent. So he had to stay in an alleyway.

All that was found with him was a pocket knife. A plum, and a little bit of spare cash. The rest of the stuff in his backpack was his notebooks.

Along its pages were fragments of his memories. That would come and go. He was trying so hard to piece himself together.

Steve brought him back to the complex. Bucky has been living in the Avenger's tower for about three months now.

Tony wasn't very happy about the arrangement. At first, he was in a full-on rage. Since he had found the footage of his parents. But little by little, he began to understand that it wasn't Bucky's fault. His parents getting killed was a result of Hydra. But he was still upset about what took place.

Everyone knew that the sounds they heard at night were Bucky. How he would be walking around all the places he had access to. They would hear footsteps. Sometimes they would hear him mumbling to himself. Wandering around the different floors gave him time to think. This is his nightly routine

Trying to gain his memory back wasn't an easy task. Some were fuzzy, while others were completely black. It's frustrating seeing a fragment of a memory. He would try to figure out what happened. Sometime after he realized what happened in that particular memory it would vanish. As if it was never there.

All his memories would leave him feeling numb. The world around him was like a blur. Staying within the walls of his own mind. He worried that one-day Hydra would take him back. Yet he knew the compound was secure. Bucky ended up in a state of being comfortably numb.

He hardly ever slept. He was living in constant fear of falling asleep. Scared that if he was to fall asleep. His head would be plagued by nightmares. Ranging from the torture he went through. The feeling of falling off the train. Which lead to his arm getting ripped off and replaced with a killing machine. The mental torture of his memory constantly getting wiped. When he remembered something before they got a hold of him. Or being beaten into submission.

The screams of the victims by far were the worst. The list of nightmares went on, but these were the constant ones. All the memory's of his time as the Winter Soldier. So he tries his hardest not to sleep.

But even super soldiers get exhausted from lack of sleep. When he does get some sleep. It's a maximum of three hours. Then he wakes up to screaming and crying out in pain. Once Bucky catches his breath he bolts out of his bed.

Bucky has been trying to adjust to the present day. Trying to have a small conversation was hard on him. He wasn't allowed to speak with Hydra. It was hard getting used to people, in general. It was an everyday struggle.  So he chose to stick by Steve's side. He was the only one with who Bucky was somewhat comfortable. Once in a while, someone other than Steve would be nice and say hey.

But no one really tried to reach out to him. Mostly because they got 'If you even look at me in wrong. I will slit your throat, and they won't find your body.' Type of vibe. They were walking on broken glass around him. Bucky was hurt, but he understood why they did.