"....Loki?" Your voice was choked as you stumbled backwards, back into the elevator you'd just come out of. He'd had his arms wrapped tightly around a woman and you had watched him press a kiss to her cheek and smile. The smile he used on you.
He had had that look on his face like she meant the world to him. That loving look in his eyes. All the things you thought were just for you....
He tried to reach out to you but the doors closed before he could and the elevator started to move back to your floor. You wiped away tears and sighed. You wouldn't let anyone here see you weak like that. Only Loki had ever seen you cry. Really cry. You didn't cry pretty.
You lock the door behind you in case that jerk tries to follow you and curl up in the middle of your bed, pulling the covers over your head and letting the tears flow freely, now that you're alone.
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Hours passed, and you just lay there in your room. People came to ask if you were okay. Asked if you wanted to talk. You said no to all of them. 'I want to be alone right now, I'm okay.' If they knew you better, they'd know that you were lying.
You did random things to pass the time. Played solitaire. Played a game on your phone. Read a book. Until you finally caved and pulled out the shirt he'd given you. It wasn't anything special. Just a plain green t shirt to anyone else. But to you it was so much more.
It held a memory.
"Loki, hurry up, we're getting drenched out here!"
"I'm coming, I can't run well in this, I'll fall!"
"So even with magic you're still a massive klutz?"
"Oh, you be quiet."
It was pouring down rain, not to mention freezing. You were getting ready to hail a cab when some careless driver blew by and splashed mud all over you. Loki was still catching up and didn't get any on him, but you were now drenched and filthy.
He laughed for a second before helping you take your mud soaked shirt off. He smiled a little and took his own off, putting it on you without even asking. Not that you cared.
"There."
"...but Loki now you don't-" You paused as a new shirt just sort of.... appeared on him. "Wizard."
"I'm not a wizard, quit saying that!"
"No, but you're magic, same thing!"
"It is not!"
You both laughed as you quickly climbed into the taxi that had pulled up, and continued to giggle like children all the way back to the compound.
You sobbed into the fabric and held it tightly to your chest, your heart feeling shattered and your stomach twisted. How could he do this to you? Make you feel like he cared and then just.... abandon you. And it had been a girl he was with. Had he really lied to you for the better part of four months? Did he not really like guys? Did he just say that so you'd open up?
You didn't hear your door open as you cried and your mind buzzed. But you felt a hand on your shoulder and gasped, standing and immediately bringing the intruder to their knees. "...Loki?"
"....I came to explain..." he sort of squeaks out, looking at you as best as he can.
You growl and release him, pointing to the door. "I don't want your excuses or your lies. I want you out of my room, and out of my life."
"You weeping all over my shirt like a heartbroken school girl says otherwise, my darling."
You blushed as you realized you still had the shirt in your hands, but brushed it off. "You get exactly two minutes," you glanced at the clock on your nightstand. "Starting now."
He took a breath and began. "The woman you saw... her name was Sigyn. And she was my wife, a very long, long time ago. She was killed right before my eyes, and I couldn't save her. What you saw was an illusion I'd conjured... and do you know what she said to me? She told me that you were my second chance, and that I needed to protect you.... but I can't if you won't allow me to."
You stood in silence, thinking about what he had said. Come to thing of it, he'd told you his warrior wife's story before. How had you forgotten? "....what prompted you to make an illusion of her in the first place?"
He flushed and wrung his hands. "....I'm not great at this.... being in a relationship, I mean... I wanted to know if I was doing it right..."
You smile a little and roll your eyes. "You are absolutely unbelievable."
"Me? You're the one who sat and moped all day because you thought I was seeing an actual cloud of smoke behind your back."
"Oh, just shut up and kiss me so I'll feel better."
"With pleasure~"
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Teensy A/N: I'd like to point out that when I write Loki, I don't write just one specific version, I kind of smush them all together, the ref photo is just MCU Loki because I find him aesthetically pleasing
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