To die with you *wroetoshaw* ✔

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'Lying to me about what?' Harry asked he looked tired and exhausted. 'nothing' I replied instantly. 'y/n just tell him' Jide looked at the floor and the other boys had followed out by now. I shook my head. 'y/n hes ready' Tobi decided to share. 'ITS NOT THAT HES READY I'M NOT' I shouted trying my best not to cry. 'y/n. nothing you say will change my feelings towards you' he put his hand on my cheek but I pushed him away. 'y/n..' JJ was quiet and soft. 'I'm sorry forgive me soon' he made eye contact with Harry 'Y/n has an illness, shes going to die in 1 year and a half' then I felt it people say their heart breaks and I used to think it was such bullshit but right now I could swear my heart shattered. I looked at Harry who had tears in his eyes. 'I told you this do-' he tried to reach for me but I stood back. 'You don't understand' I felt my voice breaking I was shaking 'you were the first person who didn't treat me as just a disease you saw me as more than that' he was trying so hard to reach for me but all I did was move. 'it will still be like that' I shook my head 'no not anymore everything will be rushed i'll go lets go somewhere and you will rush so much everyone does.' I turned to get into my car but he managed to grab my hand 'but...I love you.' I took his face into my hands it was wet with tears. I softly kissed his lips for probably the last time. 'and I love you but this can never work. I am just a disease' I got into my car as quick as possible and drove home ignoring the fact It was probably illegal as Id been drinking.

I managed to get to my house safely and I ran inside I didn't even get to my room when I broke. Everything.I had lost literally everything. My bestfriends and my boyfriend my world. I had nothing no one to call and talk it over with most people would call a parent or sibling but I didn't even have that. I was all alone so I sat on my kitchen floor and let all my tears out.

Harry's pov

I watched her car drive away I watched a car with my world inside leave for good. 'and you all knew' his voice cracked a little. no one answered they all just looked down 'nah I get it. It just hurts.' My birthday. Ha a birthday breakup the irony. everyone left over the next hour or so saying thanks to me but I wasn't in the mood. I headed straight to my room as everyone had gone. The sidemen and their girlfriends were all staying here but I didn't speak to them. I grabbed some paper and begun. I let the tears pour out as my ink scribbled across my page. I had come up with a million different ways to get her back I'd start in the morning. I was on the verge of sleep when I realised she had no one. I could easily go downstairs and talk to one of the boys but she couldn't do that. She couldn't even phone a parent oh god.

y/n pov

I grabbed my phone and scrolled down my contacts. no one. there was no one I could call I got up and looked up into my bathroom mirror. 'I hate myself' I whispered to no one. I ran into my room and took out one of his jumpers I chucked it on and I could smell the familiar smell of well just harry and a hint of mint as always. I then realised what I needed to do. 'Hello this is the voicemail of y/d/n leave a message' I took in a breath 'Hey dad I have no one right now thought I'd leave a lil message I miss you by the way you and mum. obviously you know about my illness well my boyfriend, sorry ex boyfriend found out I miss him but it'll never be the same. Dad I was in love but I'm gonna die and leave him so I left early less pain right? god I don't know I really could do with some advice right now. But it's okay I guess soon I'll be with you and mum. I miss you so bad anyway thanks for listening I'll keep you updated tell mum I love her and well I love you dad, everyday without you guys is a struggle I miss the warmth in your hugs oh how i miss you well i love you goodbye' I ended the phone and sat in silence. The only person who could ever tell me I deserved a life was Harry. The only person I wanted was him and it was my fault I couldn't have him.

{A/N} well i definitely did not cry lol i'm sorry if its depressing it ain't gonna lie it ain't getting better anyways please vote love anyone whos still reading this utter crap x