Falling ♡ Timothée Chalamet

20 - noise

This felt good. This felt really nice.

Almost Normal. Yes, that's the correct word.

I finally felt normal again as I pushed the small shopping cart down the aisle letting Noelle and Timmy fill it up with every snack they laid eyes on.

Things with Timothée have been amazing. We've yet to kiss again but he's finally open with me, he finally tells me his true feelings.

I appreciate him for that.

As for things with me and Noelle.. it's been amazing. I finally feel like I can call her my friend, my best friend, without doubting it in my mind. I told her about my dad, about my life. I told her every secret and every truth to the lies I fed her all these years.

It felt good to let it all out. To tell her everything that was weighing me down. I know it was the right decision.

She doesn't pity me.

However, the only thing in my life that felt out of place at the moment was Sam. He hasn't shown up to school, doesn't answer my calls or Noelle's worried texts. He has completely vanished from the face of the earth and so has Halie. But I don't know whether I should be worried about him or not.

It surprises me that he has the audacity to leave now. At a time like this. Whilst Alex is still in a coma and things with Noelle and him are still awkward.

Plus, he hasn't fixed shit with me yet. And I don't really want to fix shit with him considering how annoying he has been for the past month. But nonetheless, I still believe that in order for me to truly feel content with my life I need to solve my issues with him.

And Drew.

Fuck.

Drew is the person I've been dreading talking to the most. Because I know I hurt him. I know facing him will be painful and I know he said he wanted time to heal, but how much time should one give?

I don't know. But I need to find out.

'I'm going to go to the electronics section, hit me up when your done?' Timmy says after placing a large bag of Cheetos in the cart. I nod watching him walk away and I continue walking down the junk food isle and grabbing everything in sight.

We're having a movie night at Noelle's place tonight. Her parents are still fighting regularly but she says if we sit in her theatre room and blast the speakers at maximum volume, the movies might drown out the sound of her parents arguing.

I didn't want to let her down so I agreed and when she invited Timmy I made him agree too. And now we're stacking up on snacks to eat. 'Our mission is to gain a few pounds tonight. Sound good?' Noelle says passing me some chocolate bars.

I nod a little bit too enthusiastically as I place the chocolates on the kart. 'Sounds perfect.' Noelle chuckles at my reply and as we make it to the end of the aisle, our kart more than halfway filled, I realize I need to get myself some medicine for a gash I got at soccer practice yesterday.

'I'll be right back.' I say handing the cart over to Noelle who gladly takes it and as I make my way over to the aisle I pass by Timmy who's looking at a new headset to buy for his video game set up. He sends a funny flying kiss my way and I pretend to faint, placing the back of my hand on my head and falling over.

I make him laugh, which was my intention all along and once I know I've accomplished it I continue on my journey to the medicine section.

Once I reach the short aisle I find myself frozen in place. Goosebumps start to rise all over my body and I've found it hard to breathe all of a sudden. I walk back in the opposite direction and I don't realize I'm panicking and hyperventilating until Timothée walks up to me and places both of his hands on my shoulders. 'Are you okay?' He asks searching my face for answers.