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Chapter 27 Bestie knows best

KEHLANI

I sat next to Alexus on her couch trying to focus on the episode of 'That 70's show' but not even Red Freemen could pull my head out of my thoughts about moving in with Kyle. I had an endless pros and cons list going on in my head and I can't even tell you which side had more. I bit my lip looking out at the city line that Alexus's apartment had a perfect view of.

"Are you even paying attention?" Alexus asked me pulling me away from my obsessive thinking.

"Huh?" I asked her completely lost on what she was talking about. She looked at me amused laughing shaking her head.

"You are over thinking it Lani. I wish I had a boyfriend that wanted me to live with him, that looked at me with even the fraction of love Kyle looks at you with" Alexus told me. I bit my lip looking away, I knew I was overthinking it but there was a lot on the line. I couldn't just snap my fingers and say I was going. A big part of me wanted to talk to my dad, I wanted to go to him and see if he was honestly going to just abandon me. I couldn't though, I promised Kyle I wouldn't go over there without him and I wouldn't break my promise.

"It's a big deal Alexus. I've been rejecting the idea to move in with him since I was accepted into UCLA and now I don't know what will happen if I say no this time" I told her tears filling my eyes. I was terrified Kyle would breakup with me if I told him I wanted to wait until UCLA to move to Los Angeles. Then if I moved there I'd lose my family, I felt like regardless I was losing something important to me.

"I truly love him Alexus. I thought what I had with Damarion was love but what I feel with Kyle makes me wonder if I ever even loved Damarion" I told Alexus knowing it didn't make sense to anyone else but me.

"What are you so scared of?" Alexus asked me but I didn't want to talk about this with her. I didn't want my older sister to know I was terrified Kyle would get bored with me and leave me with no where to turn. Then if I told Kyle I was scared for that to happen he'd just get mad at me for thinking like that. I felt stuck and I knew that's not what Kyle wanted to happen but I felt like it was neither or.

"Excuse me" I whispered getting up walking out of the living room back to the spare bedroom that had become mine. I shut the door letting the tears fall from stress, I walked over to the dresser grabbing my phone thinking about calling Kyle. I didn't want to stress him out, his game was tonight and the last thing he needed was for me to be adding on. As I stood there overthinking calling him my phone began to ring showing him calling me. I whipped my tears clearing my throat answering his call pressing the phone to my ear.

"Hey, I was just thinking about" I smiled into the phone.

"I was hoping so. What are you up to?" Kyle's smooth clearly tired voice came through the other line.

"Not much. I was just watching TV with Alexus, what about you?" I asked clicking my tongue playfully making him chuckle.

"Thinkin about you" He told me and I heard the smirk in his voice making me giggle.

"What about me?" I asked moving to the bed laying on my stomach.

"Well it started with picturing you in that sexy lingerie, then your lips, which led to your laugh, then your eyes and how they hold every emotion you feel. Then about what it was like waking up next to you every morning" He told me. I blushed pulling the phone from my ear covering the speaker trying to stop the squeal threatening to leave my lips. The butterflies attacked my stomach like they were trying to murder me. I pushed my phone against my ear smiling so wide my face hurt.

"I love you so much Kyle Kuzma" I told him laughing

"I love you too. Why don't you ever call me Kuz or baby or anything other than my government name?" He asked me his tone completely curious. I thought about his question but I do call him baby sometimes don't I?