Homeless Heart (A Story Never Told)

Kiss Me Like You Wanna Be Loved

I woke up to a buzzing sound. I was tucked into bed, with a cold towel onto my head. What is going on? It took me a couple of seconds to realize what happened yesterday..if it wasn't a different day of course. Ben has a family, seperate from ours. And he has kids. My head started thumping at the thought. Ben wasn't coming back... Ever.

"Oh, you're awake, thank God."

I looked over to my door, and I saw Joey in front of the door frame looking worried, with a blanket in his hands.

"What-what are you doing here Joey?"

"You left your keys at the coffee place yesterday when you left. I just came to drop them off and I saw that your door was open. I came in and I saw you lying down on the floor, unconcious. I was going to take you to the hospital, but you still had a pulse. I- I didn't mean to cause anything, I just wanted to make sure that you were okay. I should- I should maybe go now that you are well..." 

"Wait.." I said lifting up from the bed, taking the towel off of my head.

"Thank you Joey. You didn't have to do this at all." I said.

"Oh, no problem. I- i-i'm gonna go.."

"Joey wait! Sit down." I patted the bed.

Joey sat down next to me.

"Why are you always so nervous when i'm around" I asked.

He let out a heavy breath.

"I honestly don't know, ha. I guess I just haven't seen you in a while and i'm afraid Ben is going to pop out any second now." he said looking at the window outside.

"Oh, yeah" I said sorrowfully.

"You know what, I should really be headed out now, Ben could be here any second and-"

"You don't have to worry about him coming around anymore" I said starting to tear up. Before I knew it I felt the tears stream down, I couldn't hold it in. 

"Is.. is everything alright?" he replied. He took my hand and held it.

"No, everything is not alright." I sobbed into his chest.

"He cheated on me! He has a family, and kids. A kid of his own with another woman! I- I don't even know what to say to this. And now that you told Rachel what happend, she hates me. And I don't know what to do. Everyone hates me, even my own daughter! You probbaly do to after all the shit I put you through. I'm just a fucking wreck. A wreck!" I said crying. I couldn't hold it in. It was too much. The thought of the only man I ever loved leaving me was unbearable.

"Look at me. No one hates you, okay? You are a special person to each and every person you encounter. Just because someone did you wrong, doesn't mean that they hate you. You are special. Don't listen to the demons in your head. Jesus loves you" he replied.

I stared at his face for a couple of seconds, and he wiped my tears. After a couple seconds of staring at him, I leaned in and kissed his furiously. I kissed him down his neck, and began to unbutton his shirt.

"Look I-"

I didin't stop. I knew he didn't want me to neither.

"Look you can't do this!" he shouted, pushing me off of him.

"What's your problem? I know you want this. Isn't that what every man wants, sex? Isn't that why men cheat because of sex? Everyone wants sex!" I shouted.

"You are doing this out of spite! You don't love me! You're hurt. I can't let you do this!" he stood up and left the room and exited himself out. 

I sat there on the bed. Alone. Who am I? What am I becoming? This pain was starting to get the best of me, and the worst. 

Hello everyone! Hope you enjoyed the chap! The next one will be longer sooo get ready! Going back into the past next chap bc Canoff is back from vay-kay . Happy reading :)