Darkness in Disguise

i want, it doesn't matter

flourishing fluttering building up having nowhere else to go

nowhere but out, onto others my burdens my...my passion thrown into the world looked on by who

because one is too many

eyes, your eyes are much too heavy 

dont look at me

look at me

please, your eyes make me hazey wanting to run and hide with no one by my side

drag you down along my side as i sink into your eyes, your arms?

im uncomfortable

unfamiliar with your touch...with anyones touch

i dont like it

but i want it

touch me

don't

i want to feel you

alone only brave to think this thoughts in the dark away from prying eyes im abe to think with heat intent on warming my cheeks even alone

to have contact

contact, touch, warmth, skin, trust, betrayal, trust me, i love you

no 

but your love hurts me

its iffy, changy

it changes, betrays

im confused

refuse to give u much

to let u even see 

why should i

don't tell me to do it

don't tell me that's all you have

i know this

I KNOW

later forced to listen to your taunting of this and that but never said to the face aways behind the back

confusing me, my brain 

i don't want to hear it

i want...

it doesn't matter does it

im happy

i know what i have

theres something inside of me inch by inch breaking its way out and im scared

determined to come out breaking the bondage of my inner self chains

"let me out"

i feel the change coming, it's inevitable

its too much, too much feeling, hands sweating, heart beating, eyes closing in bliss, mind at irrational peace

just

don't stop 

just sing to me

i push away but i want..

your voice is fucking lovely

will you please sing to me

..i want to sing to you

want to let it breakthrough, let the passion immerse me until there's nothing left, take me where you please...let me

i-...

let me sing to you

Darling, let go show me, i want to see, i will see, let go with me

just let go

are you afraid of what they think

you say no but you are afraid

of what? rejectment

 it's not like you haven't been before 

why do you hesitate 

i want to hear you

let me?

baby, just let go