Labour For Love

Chapter 4: Getting Close

What is wrong with me?

I was laying in my bed wide awake at 1 am and I couldn't stop asking myself this question. Every time I tried to sleep, the image of Ryan kept popping up in my head. His charming smile and his amazing eyes that seemed to pull you in. I've never met anyone like him before. Funny, charming....

I sighed and turned over in my bed. I need to stop thinking about him before I go crazy. I gave up on men a long time ago. My first boyfriend who got me pregnant when I was fifteen left when he found out I was pregnant. Didn't want anything to do with the child. I found out later that he really didn't like me, he was just using me to get what he really wanted. Me in his bed. It was my first time and I got pregnant. I was so young and naïve. The second boyfriend I ever had was four years ago when I was in college. To cut a long story short, I found out he was cheating on me and that was the end of that. I closed my eyes again and the next thing I knew I was drifting off to sleep.

I woke up the next morning groggily. I was so tired because of the lack of sleep I got the night before. I got out of bed and went to the bathroom that was next to my room. I washed up and head to the kitchen to see my mother preparing breakfast. Once I reached the kitchen, Mimi purred and circled my legs. I fed her and by the time I was finished, I ate my own breakfast of an egg, plantains, frankfurters put together in bread to make a sandwich. I also set water to boil to make hot chocolate. When I was done, I sat on the couch and ate. I turned on the television to the program Break Through Deliverance.

After eating, I brushed my teeth and got ready for church. I'm not a christian-- not yet anyway, but I make an effort to go to church every Sunday with my mother. To be honest, I can't go a day without giving God praise because of all that He has done for me. Within an hour I was ready and left for church.

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I got home, cook dinner and had just eaten and was now relaxing in my room reading a book, when I heard my phone buzzed beside me indicating I got a Whatsapp message. I stretched for my phone and went into the app. My eyes widen and I sat up when I saw that it was from Ryan.

Ryan: Hi there :)

To be honest, I was surprised as I never expected him to text me so soon. I responded quickly.

Lindsey: Hey

Ryan: What are you up to?

Lindsey: Nothing much. Just reading a book.

Ryan: Ahh! So you're a reader?

Lindsey: Yep. What are you doing?

Ryan: Just thinking about you ;)

I shook my head. Him and his flirty ways. However, I wondered if he was really thinking about me. There was nothing special about me. It took a while before I respond.

Lindsey: Oh really now. Why am I supposed to believe that?

Ryan: Because you're intriguing and I would like to get to know you...

Before I could respond, he sent another message.

Ryan: Are you single?

Lindsey: Yes

Ryan: OK cool. Tell me something about yourself?

Lindsey: I love to read, dance and cook...

Ryan: OK. How old are you?

Lindsey: I'm 25. You?

Ryan: 32

Lindsey: What do you do?

Ryan: I work in the insurance business. What about you?

Lindsey: I'm a basic school teacher.

Ryan: You must have the patients to deal with them...

Lindsey: Lol....they are not that bad. I actually love little kids.

Ryan: You have any of your own?

What should I tell him? No? Yes? No, of course. Duh! I don't have any children. I mean I did have a child but I don't have her with me. Ugh! If I tell him yes and that I don't have her anymore, that is a story I don't want to get into right now. So I will just stick to no.

Lindsey: No. You?

Ryan: Yes. A daughter.

He has a child? Who would have known. Well, he did look the father type. We talked for hours after that. I found out that he was pretty easy to talk to. I didn't brought up the child mother though. I was not comfortable doing that. It was not even my business by the way because he said he was single. I was now getting sleepy and I looked at the time and saw that it was 11pm. Wow! Where have the time went? I was enjoying our conversation that I lost track of time.

Lindsey: I'm sleepy now and I have to get up early tomorrow for work. Talk to you a next time 😊

Ryan: OK. Sweet dreams about me 😉

Lindsey: 😏 OK later

Ryan: Night.

After that I put my phone on charge and went to my bed with a smile on my face.