Loving Ashton Irwin

liams first binder.

Liam POV

I have lived with Ashton a few days now and I still feel awkward getting dressed in front of him so I change in the bathroom. Today i decided to take a shower first, well I didn't know Ashton would walk in while I was wrapping my chest in bandages to flatten it.

"Liam is that safe? It doesn't look safe? What are you doing?" I hear Ash say from behind me. I quickly grab the towel and turn around hiding my body. "I- I- uh- n-no maybe, no. Why? I just don't want to be seen as a woman that hurts more." I reply. He looks at me with a pained and confused look.

"I just don't want you to hurt yourself is all. Is there a way for you to safely do what you're doing, a way that won't hurt you?" I look at him for a few minutes before replying with, " yes, there's this clothing article called a chest binder, the two most common and trustworthy places to get them are gc2b and underworks. But I don't have any money and the bandages are cheaper and more convenient."

I look at Ash waiting for an answer when I only now realize he's shirtless. I got lost in thought while staring at him that I didn't hear him answer when he said he'd buy it for me so that i would be safe and comfortable. I think I began drooling and almost dropped the towel. It's a good thing I didn't or else Ashton would have probably seen something he didn't want to see.

"C-can you please turn around or something so I can put clothes on? I'm kind of naked...," I asked. "Oh yeah right. Sorry..." he turned around and waited for me to be clothed. I ended up putting on a Led Zeppelin shirt with the sleeves cut out and a pair of black skinny jeans with the knees ripped out, they're a little baggy on me, cause I've been losing weight like crazy and I'm surprised Ashton hasn't said anything. And a pair of rainbow vans high tops.

"Okay all dressed now." Ashton turns around to face me. I smile a small smile and give a soft giggle. He's just staring at me and it's make me nervous. "Earth to Ashton, what you staring at?"

"Uh um yeah I was just noticing that you look really good in the clothes we bought for you." He said with a smile.

"Um thanks I guess?" Did he just say what I thought he said? Does that mean he likes how I look? I'm so confused.

We head downstairs for breakfast. I eat it but only to not offend mrs. Irwin I love her cooking don't get me wrong I just don't feel right eating. Not when I don't look like the man I see myself as in my head.

The thought that plays on repeat in my mind just keeps looping, 'maybe if I lose enough weight I'll lose my titties and he flat chested and not be seen as a woman anymore.'