Loving Ashton Irwin

shopping with Ashton

Liam POV

Ashton and I walked to the mall since neither of us drive and can't really take the bus since I'd freak out.

Ashton has always been so accepting of the small things that scare me even when they shouldn't. He's an amazing guy and I wouldn't want to ever lose him.

"H-hey ash I just wanna thank you for everything you do. You're just such a cool and amazing person who is so handsome and could choose to hangout with better more normal people. Yet you hang out with me and I'm a loser."

He stops walking for a minute and grabs my shoulders before becoming to talk.

"Listen, I don't ever wanna hear you talk down about yourself like that. You are the best person I know and I wouldn't trade the time I have with you to be with anyone else. Hell I'dlove if I could have more time with you."

"R-really?"

"Yes really you doofus." He pulls me into a hug that I just want to melt into and never move apart but I know I have to.

We begin walking again and we end up at hot topic and buy some micellanious band tees. Including a few of the band ash is in. We then go to a few other shops. Only for me to realize that I ended up with an entire wardrobe that could potentially be stolen by ash.

I unintentionally audibly giggle when I notice this. Ash looks at me slightly confused.

"I uh noticed that if you wanted to this entire wardrobe is your exact style."

"We must have the same taste then." He chuckles softly.

We stopped for smoothies on the way home his was a banana mango and blueberry with soy milk. Mine was an açai blueberry banana mango raspberry and lemon with unsweetened hemp milk.

I look up at him and admire the way the sun shines on his face and just the way he looks today, I love him so fucking much but I can't tell him. I can't ruin such a good thing. He's my only friend.

I check the time, "shit! I'm late, uh ash can you by chance call my mum and tell her I'm with you she'll freak when she finds out I'm not home."

"Yeah no problem, your mom seems to love me I guess." He calls her and tells her that I'm with him and that we'll be there soon.

We walk up to the house after stashing the shopping in my pot shrub, I call it that cause it's where I hide my pot. And we walk inside. She's standing in the kitchen.

"Hey mum, is it cool if ash stays for dinner?"

"Of course it is, he's practically family. And before I say hello to him let me ask you how are you today my beautiful daughter?"

Ashton cringes and tenses when he hears her call me that. But I can't come out to her I'll get kicked out.

"I'm fine mum..."

"Why are you wearing boys clothes you're not a lesbian are you?"

"No it's uh it's just laundry day and Ashton had some clothes here and they were clean so I put them on so I could wear something while washing mine."

That's a lie I burned them all these were all that was left until we went shopping.

"And who cut your hair you were so beautiful with long hair, now you look like a dyke or a tranny."

Ashton suddenly grips onto the counter. He's not usually like this, usually he's calm and dismissing of her criticism to me.

"I did, wanted a change in apperance. Got bored of long hair. Ash and I are gonna go play FIFA let us know when dinner is done. Alright."

We walk upstairs to my room. And sit on the bed. I end up leaning into his chest and start crying.

"Hey hey you're okay, you can move soon and then it'll all be over here. And you can become the handsome man that I see you as. Alright? Don't let her get to you."

I sniffle between words as I say, "she's the only family I have and she just says such hurtful things like that all the time I just wanna get out of here ash."

A few hours later we go down for dinner. My mum still going on with homophobic slurs and shit. Finally I have enough and I slam my hands down whilst standing up.

"You know what I've had enough of this shit. It's time you know the truth, I'm not your fucking daughter. I'm your son. My name is not allica, it's Liam. I'm also gay as fuck. I like dick and I want to have a dick. I can't sit here and pretend what you're saying is okay cause it's fucking not!"

"Get... out... now... I won't accept this, if you want to be like... that you can move the fuck out I won't stand for this. And as for you Ashton, you should have better taste in friends than... than... the gays." She says with so much disgust in her voice.

"Actually mrs. Sky I myself am gay as well so if you don't mind, liam and I will be off, good day."

Ashton grabbed my hand and walked me out we stopped at the bush and grabbed all my new clothes as well as my pot. We started walking to his house.

"Are you sure your mum will let me stay with you?"

"Of course, she loves you." Almost as much as I do, Ashton adds in his head.