All For A Reason #Wattys2015

16. Izzy's Story

So last chapter was like....Woah. 

Remember when Alexi was asking if Izzy was okay, and if she blanked out? Well that's about to be explained right now...

No Dedication or Song today.

Off to Izzy......(Still her P.O.V.)

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I was kept in the back rooms of the tour bus, with fear that I may try to hurt Roc, or possibly send him to a hospital. They were trying to calm me down, and tell me to lay down, but how? He was feeling up on a girl! Like if you were that jealous with me talking to Diggy, the worst he could've done was smile at her. I don't recall myself touching Diggy's abs. I don't recall myself whispering in his ear. The only thing I remember is blushing like hell, Because that is my favorite artist next to Mindless Behavior. I was fucking nervous. Not flirting. 

And still in my heart, I love Roc. But is it worth to put up with this bullshit? That happened in only one day? 

Niyesha: Izzy for the last time, you can't go to him!

Izzy: I'm not gonna kill the boy. I wanna know what was his reasoning behind this.

Niyesha: Izzy, you ---

Alexi: Let her. 

They looked at Alexi like she was crazy. 

Alexi: If there's one thing that idiot has to know, it's Izzy's story. Plus, she needs to know why he did what he did. 

LeeLee stopped blocking the door, and let me through. I saw the boys whispering to Roc. I cleared my throat letting them know I was in the room. 

Princeton: Maybe we should --

Izzy: No, no. It's cool. I'm guessing he already told you, why he did what he did. So go on and tell.

He stood quiet.

Izzy: Oh so now, you wanna stay quiet? But when you were talking to Tasha, your mouth, and your hands were going a mile per minute. Don't pull that bullshit on me Cheresanto! I ain't the one to mess with. Lemme tell you a few things about me....

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One thing my momma always told me was that there's always gonna be someone bringing you down. And the only person that bring yourself back up, is yourself. I was told that my whole life. My mom was a crack head. But the thing is, she was a nice crack head. She was someone who could control what she took in. She was able to take care of me. We didn't live in the best neighborhood. I was living in a neighbor of hoodrats. You had to know how to defend yourself. You had to let people know you weren't the one to mess with. I remember my first fight. It was in elementary school on the playground. Typical, I know. These group of girls kept on bothering me. All I was doing was minding my own business, trying to jump-rope with my best friend (who at the time was Alexi, but I didn't know she was my sister). But they kept on bothering me. Then the girl shoved me. All I knew was, I was on top of the girl, beating her up. And during that, everything went black. Now the thing is, I could still see. I knew who I was punching. It's was almost like my mind went black. I wasn't thinking. It was like the only thing I was thinking was to keep on punching her. It was like if something took over my mind. Two school officials had to pull me off, and I was suspended. My mom congratulated me, but told me I couldn't be doing that anymore. I told her what was up, and how I felt, and she said she never heard anything like that. My guidance counseler told me I was crazy, and that I needed help. I stopped going to her. I know I wasn't crazy. It was just something that you get used to.

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Roc: I'm-I'm sorry....I didn't know...

Izzy: No, Roc. You did know who she was. You knew that I would get annoyed and jealous. You knew exactly I would be angry. But you wasn't expecting me to get all that tough, and beat the shit out of her. If you were so jealous, why didn't you freaking tell me? You don't even need to tell me! I saw you were jealous, and I was going to talk to you, and apologize if I did anything wrong. But apparently you did the wrong. 

Driver: We're here.

Izzy: I guess we're going to sleep over again. Y'all got an extra room?

Princeton: Yeah, but don't you think---

Izzy: Nope. I'm not sleeping with him tonight. Good night guys! 

I went ahead of them, and went to the hotel room, and went to the extra room. I took off my clothes, only having my underwear and bra on, went under the covers and tried to fall asleep. But all I did was cry....

Roc's P.O.V 

I fucked up real bad. I knew who that girl was, but I didn't know they were enemies like that. What am I saying? I should've never did what I did. I let my jealousy take over me again, and it led to the person I care for being pissed at me. She said she was gonna sleep alone, something I wanted to protest to, but I couldn't find the right words. Sorry wasn't gonna do anything. She went inside the hotel room before us. When we all got up to the hotel room, Izzy was already in her room. Everyone was quiet, and I was getting glares from Alexi.

Alexi: You are so fucking lucky, that my sister cares for you. Because if she didn't she wouldn't be here in the same apartment as you. She would've made her way to the house. I'm out.

She went to EJ'S room. 

Everyone just looked at me. Like if I didn't feel bad right now. 

I went to my room while Princeton, Ray, Niyesha, and LeeLee stood in the living room. I went to the room Izzy was. She was sleeping, but the lights were still on. I went up to her, and I wanted to kiss her so bad. But I didn't deserve any love from her. I saw tear stains on her face, and I knew I did wrong. I went back to my room, and just sat there. I didn't know I can feel so much for a person. I was expecting myself to shake it off, like any other girl, but I didn't. I was actually hurting.

And it proves how much I really love this girl.

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Alright, so you guys know Izzy's story. But next chapter we'll be going back to Niyesha and Princeton. And believe me when I say you guys are going to be amazed, and surprised. Probably even relieved. 

Off to school I go....

Peace and Love...