anxious -davekat fanfiction [humanstuck]

Chapter four

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Ok so I was at the theaters watching the new Star Wars and was just like 'oh yeah I still have that fanfic, don't I?' Sooo uhhh were gonna continue this bad boi!!

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[KARKATS POV]

I rolled over and wished I could pester him. I thought can't hurt to try, so I sat up, turned on my computer, and started typing away

CarcinoGeneticist [CG] started a chat at 6:57PM

CG: HEY

TurntechGodhead [TG] joined the chat at 7:10PM

TG: oh hey dude
TG: sorry it took me a bit to respond
TG: i was talking with bro about some stuff
CG: OH UH ITS OK
TG: sweet
TG: so what's up
CG: UH I JUST KINDA WANTED TO TALK TO YOU
TG: aww couldn't wait over 20 minutes to talk to your sick strider crush
CG: SHUT THE FUCK UP DAVE OR ILL HIT YOU WITH A CHAIR TOMORROW
TG: mk calm down karkitty
TG: oh ye I was gonna ask if you wanna come over to study for a bit tomorrow
CG: OH UH SURE
TG: ok sweet, I need to go eat and sleep so I'll see you tomorrow karkles
CG: OH ALRIGHT
TG: goodnight
CG: GOODNIGHT

TurntechGodhead [TG] left the chat.

I put my computer down and laid down, falling fast asleep.

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[DAVES POV]

I signed, closing my laptop and running to the kitchen for dinner. I sat down across from dirk and started eating. Dirk has a rule that a eat at least two meals a day, he knows it's hard for me to have enough time to eat breakfast but he does still rather I do, this is because I didn't eat much at all a few months back during the worst of my depression. But I broke that rule today....

"What's on your mind?" Dirk said, bringing me back into reality.

"oh nothing dude, just thinkin, oh also I talked to karkles and he said he'd come over to study after school tomorrow"

"ok that's great"

I nodded my head and we continued eating until our plates are clean. after dinner I went to go to the bathroom to take a shower but decided on a bath instead. I started running the water and shut the door, after waiting a bit a hoped in. I started thinking, thinking about karkat. And not being concerned about him but thinking about how cute he is. All his freckles, the way he gets super embarrassed whenever I tease him, his fluffy, curly hair. Everything. It was nice. I have liked other boys in the past but I've only dated one, john. Although it was enjoyable for a bit we decided that we were better as friends, so we're just friends. And we're happy with that. We're still great bros, it's chill. I kept thinking about this for the rest of the bath until eventually being done and walking to my room. I grabbed some comfy clothes to sleep in and laid down, thinking again. But then I drifted off to sleep.

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[KARKATS POV]

I woke up with my head screaming at me, damn it hurt, I stumbled to the bathroom, it started to feel better. But then everything went blurry and my head felt even worse. I felt dizzy and held onto the wall so I couldn't fall down but I did. I was laying on the floor in pain, and I was screaming but there's no way anyone could hear me. After about 5 minutes of this I was able to get up and I slowly but surely felt better, before I threw up, shit. I made my way back to my room and looked up why this could be happening. It's because I didn't anything yesterday. I sighed and grabbed my backpack, threw on a hoodie, grabbed a lunch, and walked out the door. I opened my phone to check the time, 7:34AM hey I didn't sleep in too much today. I kept walking until I noticed that I haven't cut at all today. I don't know how to explain my emotion, but it was weird. Part of me felt like I had to, but I was kinda happy that I didnt?? It was weird. I got to school to see Dave waiting right outside the building for someone. I ignored him and kept walking but he stopped me

"Hey karkles, so uh I decided I was gonna walk with you to your first class and shit today because.., well I just felt like it, cool?"

I shrugged and nodded. We started walking but then he spoke up

"Do I have permission to hold your hand?" He asked calmly

I hesitated but thought it would be fine so I nodded and he lightly grabbed it, I squeezed his hand lightly and we kept walking. We got to our lockers and he let go, shit I was enjoying that. I put my lunch in my locker and shut it before he did. He took my hand again and we walked to my first class, which turned out to also be his first class. I let go of his hand in fear that the bullies would pick on him too, he let go but kept looking down at me.

"Hey faggot, is that your boyfriend? Disgusting" he punched me before I got a chance to respond. I fell on the floor and saw Dave walk up to them, he was talking to them, I'm not sure what about tho. Suddenly someone picked me up, I freaked out until I saw a pair of shades, it's Dave. I calmed down and curled up into a ball in his arms, feeling safe in them. He walked a bit and it was the safest I've felt for.. years actually. But then he put me down in a desk on the other side of the room, I sighed, and looked up to see that the teacher had entered the room. I looked around and saw Dave sitting behind me, I sighed in relief and started picking dead peace's of skin off of my lips, which kept me distracted for a while. This is a bad habit of mind but it does help me calm down, no matter how much people tell me not to do it. Suddenly Dave poked me a bit, I looked at him and he was trying to hand me something, I grabbed it and it was a note? It read "sorry for picking you up without consent earlier, I just had to get you away from those bullies" I flipped it over and rote on the back of it under my desk "ITS OK, I KINDA ENJOYED IT ACTUALLY, I FELT KINDA SAFE" "really? that's good to hear B)" "YEAH, AND THANK YOU" "totally dude, that's what friends are for, or some bullshit like that" "HAH YEAH" after a long while the class had finished and we went on going to our own classes alone, until while walking to one someone kicked me. I fell down and I curled up into a ball.

"You peace of shit. Why don't you do us all a favor and go fucking kill yourself" he yelled at me.

I bursted into tears while he kept yelling and kicking me. After a while he walked away and my little legs immediately started running to the bathroom. I had to cut. I got there and unzipped my backpack, I rummaged around In it. My blades weren't there. I started breathing heavier, and I was sobbing. This only got worse and worse until about 15 minutes later when Dave walked in, probably had to go to the bathroom. Once he saw me, he ran to me and hugged me tightly.

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A/N
Ok so I really enjoyed writing this part!! I hope y'all liked it!! Oh also fun fact about me: just like in this headcanon of karkat a bad habit of mine is picking the dead skin off my lips, so I relate to that part of this chapter a lot. Anyway that's all for now.
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