I pulled out one of my razors. I struggled to take the blade out without slicing my finger. I grabbed the blade and started talking to myself. "I'm sorry mom. I can't deal with this anymore." I cut myself. Pretty deep actually. I cried. I screamed. All of a sudden it felt good. It felt good to be open. To let everything out. Then it hurt. But then it felt good. I also felt bad. Not for me. But for my mom who is probably watching me. Crying. I have to stop. So i did. Only because i felt bad.
I have sports. What saddens me is that I'm probably the 3rd best on my track team. But nope. No one likes me. Is it because I'm weird. I don't know. I had to wear a sweater in 89 degree weather in Cali because of my cuts. But I didn't care. I just didn't want anyone to know.
Once practice was over i showered again because I was all sweaty. Well I'm rebel. 3 showers in one day. Im weird. I decided that i wanted to drive my car to a place to eat because i haven't gotten out in a while. I changed into sweatpants and a tshirt. I Left my hair down. It was about 8 so I went out to a mcdonalds. Very classy. After that I went to Starbucks. yummmm. I drove back home and ate my delicous food. I was pretty tired, so i went to bed. Before that, I thanked god that tommorow is saturday.
I woke up at around 11 in the morning. I got on my phone and watched a little of matthew espinosa on vine. I love him. He just makes me smile. I wanna meet him so bad. I heard a noise earlier while i was sleeping but i ignored it. Should i have ignored it? I decided to get off my butt and make myself breakfast. Froot loops are amazing. I then watched an ANTM marothon. As it started i yawned so i randomly took a nap.
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not as normal as you think.
Teen FictionJennifer Johnson had a heartbreaking, sad, and mysterious life. It started with the bullying, loss in family and the strange noises she has heard in her home. She thinks she is overreacting about everything, but is she?
