You belong with me, A one direction love story

Chapter 40

-Paige's POV.

I stared down at the plate of salad in front of me, do I really have to eat this? It's just wasted calories! I've starved all day so why would I want to chuck 200 calories back into my system? I know full well Zayn is watching me like a hawk, so I'm going to have to be more careful with my binge and purge sessions, last thing I want is him nosing about.

I felt a swift kick under the table, I look up to see Zayn mouthing 'eat' at me, so I put a slice of cucumber into my mouth to satisfy him.

'More' he mouthed again, this time I took the smallest piece of tofu and put that in my mouth, I could almost feel the calories crawling out of the tofu and into my system, clogging my body up with fat, I grabbed the nearest napkin and pretended to sneeze, getting rid of the horrible fattiness in my mouth. I sat and nibbled on a piece of cucumber, the lowest calorie food on my plate, I still wasn't happy about having to eat it but I didn't want to raise suspicions.

"Thanks Maddie that was bloody gorgeous!" The sound of Niall's soothing Irish accent interrupted my deep thoughts.

"Ditto! Thanks beautiful!" Harry grinned crashing his plate on top of Niall's, how can they all be happy about devouring 800+ calories without batting an eyelid.

"Mmmmhm!" Liam licked his lips and added his plate to the pile.

"I'm going to the gym!" I shot up from the table and almost sprinting to the bunk room, I threw on my shorts and trainers, grabbed my headphones and left out of the back door, hoping I was to quick for Zayn. The cold December air nipped at my bare skin, I power walked across the road to the gym opposite, I flashed my overused membership and proceeded to the treadmill.

I clipped the safety clip onto my shirt and turned on the treadmill on the Fat Burn setting before turning the speed and incline right up.

Half an hour later I was 437 calories down before I was interrupted.

"Miss, were closing please could you exit the gym?" a polite teenage girl asked, I glanced at my watch I didn't realise what time it was.

"Sure sorry honey!" I smiled turning the treadmill off and leaving the gym, I jogged back to the tour bus but waited outside to get my breath back.

"Where've you been?" a deep familiar voice boomed.

"The gym" I mumbled, I couldn't see his face but I could see the end of his cigarette.

"I thought I told you not to?" he spoke calmly.

"I, I'm sorry" I whispered.

"Your going to ruin yourself P!" he spoke, reaching out for my hand.

"It's not like you want to be with me though is it! I'm just the bit on the side, substitute for your girlfriend because she's not here right?" I snapped, bursting into tears.

"Of course I do" he whispered.

"Why won't you end it with Hana then!" I cried pulling away from him and running into the bus, ignoring him shouting my name.

"What's wrong P?" Maddie smiled, I ignored her to a ran into the bunk room, hiding under the covers of my bed, well Zayn and I's bed.

I heard heavy footsteps, Zayn's footsteps.

"P" he whispered drawing back the curtain, I turned away from him and hid under the duvet some more.

"You have to talk to me some time" he mumbled sitting down on the bunk next to me.

"No go away!" I sobbed kicking his legs.

"Paige stop" he shouted, clasping a hand around my ankle a bit to roughly.