Ask-i Memnu: An Alternate Ending.

2. Heartbroken Bihter

The same day, Bihter sat in the waiting room of the abortion clinic. Shattered. Broken beyond measure. There was emptiness in her eyes, as she waited to get rid of the thing that connected her to Behlül; their child. She thought that was what had to be done, it had become necessary. That was the only way she would be able to move on from Behlül. There was no point of carrying his child when he was busy pleasing a spoilt teenager. She thought of a million reasons why this was the right thing to do.

When she finally met with the doctor, she told him to get rid of it as soon as possible. She said she wanted to get over with it as she couldn't take it anymore. The doctor sensed the pain in her voice and asked her if she wanted to reconsider her decision.

Bihter: "No, it's what has to be done. Please, could you perform the procedure right away. I don't want to waste anymore time." she said, hiding away the pain in her voice.
Dr Çem: "As you wish, Bihter. I just wanted to make sure you weren't confused. You might regret later" he explained in a concerned tone.
Bihter: " No, please lets get it over with."

They prepared Bihter for the procedure and gave her anaesthesia. As Bihter laid there, unconscious, her feelings started to come to her mouth.

Bihter: "I want it.. I want to have this baby. Please.. I don't want to lose him.. I want it so much." she pleaded unconsciously as tears streamed down her cheeks.

Dr Çem, who was deeply moved by the situation, decided to stop the process immediately.
Bihter was shifted to the recovery room without performing the procedure. Dr Çem waited for her to gain conscious. As she struggled to open her eyes, she asked if it was over.

Bihter: "Is it done?"
Dr Çem: "We couldn't.. after losing conscious, you said you wanted the baby so we stopped."
Bihter: "What? You mean you didn't?"
Dr Çem: "No, Bihter, you would have regretted later."
Bihter: "Thank you.. thank you so much!! I'm grateful to you!" she exclaimed with her voice breaking.

She couldn't control back her tears. She was overwhelmed, happy and even excited. She rested her hand on her stomach, trying to feel her baby. It was clear that she wanted to have this baby so much. No matter what the situation was or what life had in store for her, she knew this baby was her only chance at survival. The doctor told her to take care of herself. She left the clinic with a new found hope. She knew she was strong, she could overcome all the difficulties and now she had a child to fight for. There was a purpose. She could do it! She took a taxi and decided to visit her daddy's grave.