Ask-i Memnu: An Alternate Ending.

8. Can't Help Thinking About Each Other

Sinan: "Bihter? Please tell me what happened out there? You are freaking me out! Why are you crying like that?"
Bihter: "I saw him.."
Sinan: "Who? Your ex? Behlul?!"

Sinan worked at the same firm as Bihter and he was from Turkey too so they became friends very soon. He knew Bihter's story as they became good friends while working together. But they were just friends. In fact, he was engaged to get married. So, he was just a friend, contrary to what Behlül assumed.

Bihter: "Yes.. That god-damn Behlul! That too with his bratty little wife. Can you imagine?!"
Sinan: "Oh, canim! I'm so sorry. It must have felt horrible.."
Bihter: "I don't get it, Sinan! Why? Why did he have to appear in my life again out of nowhere? When I'm already so broken.. trying so hard to move on.. Why?! You know, no matter how much I try to hate him, it's just impossible! The moment I saw his face, my heart skipped a beat.. it's like I have no control over myself. I hate it.. I want to forget him.. Move on!! But it's just impossible.."
Sinan: "Seeing you like this is heart-breaking. Please stop crying. I'll take you to Alice's place. You shouldn't be alone. You need some rest. It's not good for the baby."

They got to Alice's place, both of them got really worried about Bihter's situation because they had never seen her so broken in all these months. It had taken so much courage for her to finally become a little lively but after this incident, she was devastated once again.

Alice: "Bee, please lay down. You need to stop crying and rest for a bit. Look, it's not good for the baby. Think about him."
Bihter: "Aly, I'm so sick of going through all this torture all alone. I can't take it anymore! I don't know where to get courage from.. I'm tired.. You know.. I'm going to have his baby while he is sits there with another woman.."
Alice: "Honey, you've made it this far. It's your 5th month. Just a few more months, and you'll hold your little baby in your arms. Think about that! The moment you'll hold him, every worry will go away. Your heart will be full. You'll forget everyone else! That god damn Behlül is unlucky. He really gave up on someone so beautiful like you.. He gave up on his own blood, his own son. It's his loss! Now, sweetheart, have some rest. Everything will be alright, okay? I promise!"

Bihter closed her eyes and prayed for patience and courage to fight for her son. At the same time, she couldn't get Behlül out of her head. His deep blue eyes, starring at her. She noticed the pain in his eyes, she saw how he looked at her at the wedding, how he longed for her. But there was nothing he could do, just like always. While the thoughts raced through her mind, Bihter dozed off due to the relaxants that Alice gave her so she could have some rest.

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On the other hand, Behlul and Nihal had boarded the plane for the flight back to Chicago. Nihal kept on blabbering about Bihter while Behlul paid no attention to what she was saying. He was numb and lost from shock. He aimlessly starred at the clouds through the window. His mind was still stuck at what had happened. He saw her. He finally saw his love after longing for her for so many months. Oh, how beautiful she looked. He couldn't forget her shining green eyes, the tear that rolled down her cheek when she saw him. Her beautiful curly hair gathered to one side, exposing her long beautiful neck from the back. How she rested her hand on her little baby bump, supporting it. Motherhood never looked so beautiful on a woman. She was actually carrying his baby. It was never a lie! He drowned in regret, biting his lip and clenching his fist.

Behlul: "What have you done, Behlul? How did you leave her like that?! You let her go knowing she was your first and only true love. You gave up on your woman and child, just for a bratty girl and her tantrums.. You deserve every pain you are feeling right now." he thought to himself while controlling his tears.
Nihal: "Heyy!! Are you even listening to what I'm saying?"
Behlul: "Huh? I'm sorry, what? I wasn't listening."
Nihal: "Seriously, what's going on with you Behlul? Why are you so lost? I'm getting sick of this behaviour now. Get back to yourself. You have been like this ever since we got married. Maybe even before that! Tell me, are you regretting marrying me?"
Behlul: "We'll talk when we get home. Don't create a scene here."
Nihal: "So it's true? You regret marrying me?"
Behlul: "Nihal, enough! I said we'll talk when we get home."
Nihal: "Oh my god! I can't believe it.."
Behlul: "Nihal.."
Nihal: "Stop talking or I'll lose it. I don't want to cry in front of strangers on a plane."
Behlul: "Okay." he let out as he rolled his eyes and turned his face back to the window.