my journal.

t e a .

so idk if i mentioned it in the last entry or nah but my ex kinda forced me to do things i wasn't comfortable with. i'm not saying it was ya know...because that's too extreme but like...let me explain:

i told him at the beginning of the relationship that i wasn't comfortable doing anything besides h u g g i n g because it takes me a long time to trust a person with that kind of stuff. idk if he thought i was kidding or what but he started kissing me like 3 days after i said i wasn't comfortable with that stuff.
he kept kissing me and what-not and whenever he'd try to kiss me, i'd turn my head away and do anything in my power to make him not...but i'm not as strong as him. he won many times and thought it was okay. thinking about it now makes me disgusted in myself for not pushing him off but i tried and ugh, whatever.
anyways, it got worse. groping my tits, making me give him handjobs, but the worst one was when he shoved his dick in my face. i didn't want it, i told him no and pushed it away but ugh, fill in the details yourself.
i started to realize that he turned into a prick when he was dating me.