After the talks with our families. Lumabas kaming dalawa to talk, I know that hindi sya papayag na makasal kaming dalawa. I assure that.
"Alam mo naman siguro ang mangyayari sating dalawa diba?" He asked. His Piercing chinky eyes staring at mine.
"Alam ko." I answered.
"Ito lang ang sasabihin ko kaya makinig kang mabuti. Ayoko, Ayokong maipagkasundo sayo may girlfriend ako, si Vienne and she's obviously not chinese kaya you know, and we know na tututol sila sa relasyon namin."
"Oh." I'm speechless. I did not expect him to be this straightforward and rude to me, Not the Zachary that I fell in LOVE with.
"That's why we need you, they want us to date right? Ang gusto ko pag mag d-date tayo kasama... si Vienne, We're going to pretend that we're hanging out but didn't work. No one will know unless somebody talks."
"So? You're gonna use me?" I smiled bitterly.
He knows that I'm in love with him but chose to ignore my feelings, he choose to hurt me instead.
"Yeah. Diba ayaw mo sumuway sa kanila? So be it, be the Thirdwheel."
I'm not doing this for the tradition, I want this because I want you. Pero You're selfish, you only want your happiness.
"Sasaya ka ba pag ginawa ko yun?" I said as tears starts to pool in my eyes.
"Very much." He smiled. He smiled at the thought of her, masaya sya pag kasama sya. And I want him happy.
"Ok, I'll do it for you. I'll do it For your Happiness." I didn't mean to but I broke down infront of him, I cried like a weakling na kailan man ay di ko inaasahang gawin sa harapan nya.
Instead of wiping my tears for me, he handed me his hankerchief and said the words that bore a hole in my heart. "Sorry Jian, I love you ok? But love that only a friend can give, I will still be your best childhood friend. we can still hangout right? I promise that I'll still take care of you like how I used to do, just-- just this time help me." Then he walked away, leaving me broken.
Ito naman ang gusto ko diba? Yung hindi sya makasal sa akin na sapilitan? Pero bakit ganito? Bakit nya ako gagamitin? Pumayag ako oo, pero hindi ko maiwasan na hindi mapaisip na ang tanga tanga ko pala. Nagpapaka masokista ako para sa kanya. Nagpapaka martyr, kahit wala namang meron saamin.
Napaupo ako sa sahig habang pinupunasan g mga lkuhang tuloy tuloy sa pag bagsak.
"Tss. You're so pathetic, bakit ka pumayag?"
"Shut up, jerk. Di ko kailangan ng pang asar mo ngayon. I'm not in the mood." Tumayo ako at doon umupo sa may tabi ng pool. Naramdaman ko naman ang pagsunod nya sakin.
"I can see that. But seriously, you're pathetic as fuck. Andami daming lalaki sa paligid, why not give em' a try? Nagtitiis ka sa ugali nong gagong yon."
"I'm in love with him, that's why." I sniffed.
"Here, blow your nose. Baka mamaya masinghot mo ko eh." He handed me a hanky. I blew my nose and returned the hanky to him.
"Ugh. Nadikit sa kamay ko." Sabi nya habang maarteng hawak ang hanky.
"Arte mo!" Sabay hampas ko sa braso nya. Zach used to give me his hanky and make me blow my nose too. I miss the old him. "It hurts." I said smiling bitterly.
"Alin? Ilong mo?" Tanong nya na nakakunot pa ang noo, kaya napatawa ako ng wala sa moment.
"Baliw! Yung puso ko. Yung puso yung masakit." I said still smiling bitterly.
"Bakit kasi sa kanya pa?" He whispered.
"Yan din ang tanong ko sa sarili ko, why him?" I faced him. "Sana ikaw nalang eh." Nanlaki ang mga mata nya bago nag- iwas ng tingin.
"Wag ka mag sabi ng ganyan if you don't mean it." He said still looking away.
"Bakit? Does it even matter to you?" He doesnt even care about one's feeling. Wala syang paki, manhid sya.
"It does, kapag ikaw ang nagsabi." W-what?
"Oh, really? Why is that?" I chuckled. "It's not like you like me, right?" I laughed.
"What if I do?" Natigil ako sa pagtawa dahil sa sagot nya, is he serious?!
Magsasalita na sana ako nang-- "Just kidding, stupid." He looked away and smiled.
