They Dont Know About Us

Chapter 11

*Darren's POV*

It went like a dream.

I still cannot believe this actually happened.

I'm going to marry the man of my dreams.

Last year I felt lost. I was in a relationship that my heart thought was perfect for me, but my mind said no. You're in the wrong place. You are not destined to be with a woman. You deserve to be happy with a man. Stop trying to be someone you are not.

After a few weeks of this hopeless feeling in my mind, I decided that it was time I talk to someone about it. I went to this therapist (without Mia knowing, of course) and just spoke everything that I was feeling. That I don't think I am in the right relationship for me and that I possibly might be gay but I was trying to deny those feelings. But it was nearly impossible to deny those feeling when it was all that I could think about. I was lost and had no clue what to do with my life. I needed someone to help me dig out my true self. And that's what my therapist helped me do.

She told my that if I felt that I belong with a man to not deny the feelings. It's okay to be who you are, gay straight, microwave toaster oven, whatever you identify as is okay as long as you accept it yourself.

This one session with the therapist truly helped me. But I couldn't figure out how to end my relationship with Mia. I didn't want to come straight out to say "I'm gay and I'm leaving you". I wanted to start dropping small hints. So I did. I started showing signs that I was uninterested in her. I avoided going home sometimes because I knew she was already there. By the time the Glee reunion came around, I knew it was soon time to leave. When
Chris Colfer opened the door at Kevin's housr, I knew it was over. I was gay and there was no denying it. Chris was the one I should have been with my whole life instead of Mia.

A week after the reunion, when Kevin exposed me and Mia and I ended our relationship, I sort of felt a sense of relief. It was like a huge boulder was lifted off of my shoulders. I felt free to be myself.

My main message here so to speak is to not deny who you are. No matter what you feel, you should have the freedom to be yourself. So once you learn to accept who you are, others will begin to as well.

Thank you for coming to my TedTalk. I need to go to sleep by my fiancé.

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Regular posting schedule? Never heard of her.

Sorry for the ridiculously long wait for this part. I really need to get back to writing.

Until next time...