‘oh my gosh…seriously? Buntis ka?’
‘at si Jeric ang ama?!’
‘I’m going to be an aunt?? Omigosh sis!!’
I swear I might need a new set of beautiful supportive friends because this batch is certainly nuts…buntis na nga ako and having problems on how to deal with it and here they are either rejoicing or being seriously crazy about my condition. They were all looking at me with that silly smile and kung hindi nga lang seryoso ang pinagdaraanan ko I would’ve gladly laugh it off with them and then find the perfect timing to tell my amazing boyfriend that he got me pregnant and we were going to be parents…but sadly hindi kami ganun and there’s no way in hell its going to end up with me having a baby shower with a proud boyfriend in my arm.
‘relax girls ok? This isn’t wonderland…alam niyo that Jeric and I aren’t in good terms.’ I told them as I accepted Faith’s offer of a glass of water. ‘so don’t get too damn excited.’
Mira smiled and gave me a hug ‘ahia will be very happy when he hears that he’s going to be a dad! Mahilig sa mga kids si ahia.’
‘he wont be liking this one…’ I whispered and grinned at her despite the tears that were threatening to fall from my eyes ‘he doesn’t have feelings for me…’
‘oh Via…ano ba talaga ang nangyari sa inyo ni Jeric? No offense Mira ha…pero minsan daig pa ng ahia mo ang babaeng may PMS.’ Faith said in frustration as she sat down beside a frowning Cassie.
Kung iba nga lang siguro ang situation I will be the happiest woman alive kaso hindi eh, things between Jeric and I aren’t going to work out anymore and now with me having a baby mas lalong lumala ang gap between us, though a part of me is still hoping that we can fix things and everything will work out fine between us. Although that’s not going to happen anytime soon since the Jeric Allen Teng isn’t replying to any of the txt msgs I have sent him earlier. I wanted so badly to be held by him and to just hear his voice, but he isn’t making any move to do that. I know I was part of the reason why he is being cold and stoic right now but hell I certainly didn’t want any of these. I certainly didn’t want our mothers to plan our wedding without us knowing and him thinking that I am using him for business purposes and for financial gain…how the hell can I do that to the man I love when all I wanted in the first place was to be loved by him. Why cant we be happy na lang? why cant things go the way I want them to be?
Cassie patted my arm ‘so what are your plans? Nagkita nga pala kami ni Jeric kanina when I was meeting with Kai. ‘di ba niya alam na you went to Singapore?’ she asked me.
Buti pa ‘tong bestfriend ko nakita na si Jeric, ako yung girlfriend I haven’t seen him in a while…hayy Jeric Teng when will you treat me like I matter again?
I shrugged my shoulders and looked outside the dark window before answering her ‘a part of me wants to tell him because he deserves to know, siya ang tatay ng dinadala ko but there’s this huge part that’s telling to just hide it from him. He doesn’t want me, why would he want our baby?’
I turned to look at a now pouting Mira who’s clearly against what I said and I gave her a hug
‘sis…we all know what’s going to happen. We all know that he doesn’t love me…I should’ve seen that, pero nabulag ako. Mahal ko ang ahia mo pero I don’t know if I can still take all of these…his coldness, his aloofness…ang hirap, hirap na. I wanted so much to make this work, to make what we have work pero I really cant do it alone.’
‘what if ahia will change? What if gusto pala ni ahia na mag work out ang relationship niyo? I know it isn’t easy for you pero you have a baby now, kailangan niya ng complete family.’ She argued as she wiped the tears from my cheeks. ‘please Via? Don’t let go.’
