Tsunade, The Healer of Superheroes (Naruto X YJ)

Chapter 17: The Reveal

Flashback:

Jiraiya, Orochimaru, and I just finished a mission by ourselves for the first time.

"What the hell were you thinking, Tsunade?!" Jiraiya yelled at me in anger.

As you can probably tell, Jiraiya was upset with me.

Orochimaru shrugged nonchalantly. "I don't see what the big deal is. Her actions saved the mission from failing so I don't know why you're so angry."

I nodded in agreement, glad that Orochimaru was on my side. "Exactly. I had to make up for your little slip up which almost ended the mission and our lives. I looked at the situation, saw a solution, and I acted. I did nothing wrong."

Jiraiya still didn't see things my way. "I disagree! If you had told any one of us your plan, then it would've been ten times safer! Instead, you went off on your own and almost got yourself killed!"

I glared at him. "Then that would've given the enemy the chance to find out and ruin it! I knew what I was doing! I wasn't planning on dying today! I had a plan an everything! I had every little bit of faith in my medical ninjutsu to keep myself alive!"

Jiraiya glared back. "You wouldn't have had to rely on your medical ninjutsu if you just told us your plan!"

I just got tired of this conversation and of Jiraiya, so 1 walked away with a huff. 'Why was he so angry?!'

Flashback end

I looked up at the night sky from my balcony. After the first few years of being in this world, of living this life, I thought I had a chance of letting the past be the past. That I could be a normal girl and let the kunoichi part of me die off.

My memories of my old life brought upon so many painful memories and feelings, all because of the constant wars and hatred that world had. I thought, now that I'm in a much more peaceful place, I no longer had to experience that pain or be a being of legend that many looked up to.

Then again, a part of me was also sad of how my memories of my old life might end up being forgotten. Despite all of my bad memories, I didn't want to forget Jiraiya, Sakura, Shizune, my grandfather, my grand-uncle, Naruto, Dan, Sensei, or Nawaki.

That's pretty selfish of me, isn't it? Wanting to only keep the good memories while throwing away the bad ones, but if I live in this world long enough, then slowly but surely, my skills and my memories, both good and bad, will begin to fade.

But then the heroes showed up in my life. Suddenly, my chakra was being used daily, my medical ninjutsu was needed all the time, and the League constantly reminds me of the people I knew in the Elemental Nations. It almost felt like I went back in time.

I'm extremely grateful for having the heroes in my life. Thanks to them, I can hold on to my memories and have a purpose. Thanks to them, I have a place where I can freely use my abilities and not hold back.

In public, I have to hide my abilities as I quickly learned of metahuman trafficking and enslavement. I didn't want to get my new family involved into any unwanted trouble.

But that also meant hiding a large part of myself from everyone, which, admittedly, did stress me out a bit. I hated pretending to be someone I'm not, even though that was the ticket to an easy life.

Then, the heroes gave me a chance to be Panacea. To be able to use my abilities to help others without causing my family trouble. When I'm Panacea, I also get to be Tsunade Senju. Being Panacea allows me to freely be the person that I thought I had to throw away in order to fit into this world.