my little life ^_^

Downhearted Part of Life

Ji Woo..........

Its a known thing miracle brings surprises as well as doom days. When that miracle makes you smile, on one hand, it makes cry someone on the other hand. There is nothing permanent. And that's why, Kyungsoo and Jongin ended up losing me, now they are standing in front of my grave holding back their tears. That's because, I made them promise to me not to cry in front of me when, it is a tear of sorrow. I'm just happy to see them here, happy to know what they are now.

I know it is a surprising thing, lying in my death bed. But I never wished for this. But, I guess it is a fate that, I have to see their success far away from them. Even it is their first audition and their first album release, I watched everything while closing my eyes. Their first album was named as MAMA. It went super hit. Those boys have poured all their sweats into that. the only thing that I could do is smile and nothing else.

When Kyungsoo talked about my critical situation and possible hardships, I forcefully made him promise to me, not to reveal this to anyone. Yeah, those days I was quite fond of getting promises. Soon after they left for training, I faced the aftermath of that accident. I started forgetting things as expected. I was not able to do things on my own. Thankfully, I went through all those things alone and not made them cry. Yes, I'm happy. They were shocked when they heard about my death.

That was the moment I truly believed that, life is too short. But, how much it is short, nobody knows it. To what extent it is possible we have to dance along with the time. Yes, you cannot call anything as permanent. Still, I believe the true love from true heart, even if they die lives on permanently on the earth. The true moment you made with them, will not fade away. And I'm happy that, I was able to make all those things. Now I could rest in peace and see these people standing in front of me, with a huge smile.

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the happiness of seeing your beloved one's happiness, has no words to describe. we all have a short time. but we differ on how many memories we are going to earn. let's hope to make a lot. love you all.