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In love with you

Ziyah's POV

My house is still completely empty, and I miss the feeling of sleeping right next to Daya even though it's only been some hours since I dropped her off at Harper's. Last night had to be one of the best in my life.  I don't know how to explain it, but when she told off my dad I just knew she's the girl I need and want to be with.

She's also the girl who forgives Lucas and wants me to talk to him which is why I'm sitting in my car by the park that's not too far from Lucas's building. I could've just drove straight there, but I didn't want to have any chance in seeing my dad as there is nothing for me to say. Lucas isn't here making me pull out my sketchbook and start outlining my next drawing. Usually I don't even know what I want to draw, but after yesterday the image of Daya is stuck in my brain and I know she's the only person I can draw now. I begin doing a few lines before I see a green jeep wrangler pull up behind me with Lucas in the passenger seat. So he got a car after he lied his ass off?

I throw my sketchbook in the passenger seat and step out of the car just as Lucas gets out of his and nods at me. His dreads don't seem to be taking over his face and he actually looks pretty sad and not like he's going to crack a few jokes.

When we both walk over to the sidewalk I don't bother heading to the silver bleachers outside the softball field as I don't expect this to take long. Instead I lean against a tall tree and it takes Lucas a bit to realize we're not about to sit down and be homies again.

It's never been this awkward between us and Lucas leans against the tree that isn't too far from me.

"Oh word? This is how it's going to be?" he says and his voice seems deeper.

I shake my head and don't even look at him as he rubs that chin hair that's not even there. "You wanted to talk talk, I ain't got all day," I say.

Lucas nods and takes a sniff of the mostly hot air. He doesn't look at me and keeps his eyes on the grass in between the branches of the trees. "Look dog, I know I screwed up and trust me I'm sorry, like really-"

Before he can say anymore bullshit I cut him off. "Nah don't give me that, why did you do it?" Besides Daya this is really the only reason I came and agreed to hear Lucas out.

Lucas looks up at the branches and we lock eyes as a woman walking her huge pitbull walks by. It's like that woman knew we're in some deep shit right now, and when we were younger we used to watch this old lady's pitbull. Still the dog doesn't change us staring at each other and only hearing the sound of the kids failing at handball not too far from us.

Finally he speaks and looks at me. "Because I'm in love with you." This nigga.

God I can't with this guy. He can't even keep a straight face. "Sorry man sorry I'm kidding you know me only play for the ladies, but but you really wanna know why I did it?"

I don't nod or shake my  head and just stare at him waiting for what I hope isn't more BS. "I didn't because because," he stutters then takes a step closer to me and looks me in the eyes which is weird considering what he said a minute ago. "Because you went to her," he finally shouts.

I scrunch up my face. "What?"

Lucas's whole face changes to the same expression he had when he was telling me about his mom's bible friend eating all of the mac and cheese leftovers. He's talking the same way too, separating each one of his words and letting his hands speak a little. "That day you came over and dropped my phone off I looked out of my window and I saw you," he says.

"Saw me what?" He really needs to get to the point.

"I saw you go to her!" He yells and points his finger at me. "You saw your dad and I saw you the second you saw him, but before I could even come out of my building you went to her like she knows what it's like not to have a dad when mine is in fucking Arizona with a whole ass family!"