*Discontinued* Tortured Love

3

They found Jack standing in the midst of his wrecked recording room just shaking his head. Chase was confused, to say the least. He was fully expecting Jack to flip his lid. He expected to have to protect them from each other actually but... he just watched in stunned silence as Anti slowly walked over to Jack. They didn't say a word. Neither party even looked at each other. Jack just sighed and put his arm around the demon pulling him in as Anti broke down in his arms. 

"You tried to fix everything, didn't you?" Anti nodded as Jack smiled softly. "You know you can't do that."

"I just wanted him to..."

"Anti, you can't do that." Jack spoke a bit harsher catching the demon by surprise who looked up to see the pain in his host. "I understand. I do but... You're just hurting yourself."

"I don't care."

"I do." Anti pulled away as he wiped his tears and glared at Jack with a fire in his eyes. Jack just simply smiled sadly. "And he would to if you told him..."

"Out of the question."

"But it shouldn't be, Anti. He needs to know." Anti laughed as he shook his head. "Why not?"

"I'm a demon, Jack. What do you think is going to happen? Yan is human and he still gets pushed aside... Do you really think I'm going to have any higher a chance?"

"Yandere is a psychotic love-obsessed killer." Anti's face fell as Chase whispered out catching Jack's eyes who didn't even know he was there. "Anti, what is going on with you?"

"Nothing."

"Bullshit!" Anti flinched slightly as Chase's voice echoed around the room. "I was the one that found you remember. You were in agony... lying on the floor... barely breathing... I thought you were dying." Jack's eyes widened as Anti just laughed.

"I wasn't."

"That's not the point, Dude. Tell me what the hell is going on."

"WHY TE FOOK WOULD I TELL YA SHITE?!" Chase reeled as Anti's power flared out causing the room to spark as his accent came out stronger with a glitch that you could not miss. "I didn't ask for you to 'rescue' me. I wanted to stay. I wanted to fix it all... BEFORE it was found. Then they would have nothing stopping them-m..." Jack tensed as Anti's eyes flash, knowing exactly what was happening. "I-If you had just l-let me fix it, they would b-be getting r-ready to..." Anti gasped as clenched his fists trying hard to reign it all in. "... t-t-to leave. They would be... b-be leaving... he w-would..."

"Anti?" Anti stumbled unable to support himself making Jack have to catch him. Jack brought his hand to the demon's forehead and sucked in a breath. 

"Anti, I told you. I won't let any of my egos suffer." Anti's eyes narrowed slimly despite being lost to the pain. "The trip is off."

"No..." The whine that tore through the demon was truly pathetic. "You can't. You can't... He's been waiting... praying... DREAMING about it. You... Y-You hav-ve to..."

"And let you suffer? I don't think so." Anti bit his lip till he tasted metallic and forced himself out of Jack's arms. "Anti please..."

"You don't understand." Anti laughed as he shook his head trying to rid himself of the tears that refused to stop falling. "You said you did but you don't. You'll never understand, Jack. Damn it! YOU'RE HUMAN!" Anti's laugh turned psychotic and glitchy as he shook. "The only one who might understand me is the Doctor and he isn't a full demon. Dark didn't even how to help and he IS a demon."

"Anti..."

"I LOVE HIM, JACK!" Chase's eyes were blown wide as Anti's eyes literally glitched as if he was struggling to stay whole. "When you love someone, it's rainbows and joy. I mean just take you and Gabe for instance. You're in heaven... I'm a fucking demon. When I so much as feel the slightest bit of empathy it's pain. That's all I get... pain. I love him."

"You need to tell him or else he will never understand..." Anti waved him off and started to leave making Jack have to raise his voice just to make him stop. "HE IS GOING TO LEAVE YOU!" The way Anti suddenly dropped made Chases blood freeze over. "Anti if you don't explain it, you will lose him. You're already on shaky ground after that shit you pulled. Just because I've forgiven you and am trying to let you doesn't mean anyone else has. Have you even spoken to Henrik recently? What about Jackie?"

"Th-That-t h-her-ro c-can go burn!" Jack's eyes softened seeing the way Anti's breath barely left I'm over just one sentence. "Y-You a-all c-can burn."

"Anti, I'm sorry." Chase frowned as he looked between the two. He had no clue what going on and he was getting very concerned. Scratch that. He was already incredibly concerned. Maybe it was that dream he had recently, he didn't know, but he felt as if he had gotten closer to Anti. He didn't like seeing him hurting. "If you just told hi..."

"I'm a demon, Jack. Do you honestly believe he would EVER actually choose me of his own free will?" Jack's eyes went wide as Anti fell over onto his back and just stared up at the madness he caused in a fit. "I can't tell him. I can't risk that soft heart." Anti couldn't stop the smile forming on his lips... the glimmer in his pain-filled eyes. "I know what he would do, Jack. He would blame himself for all of this. He would force himself to stay with me to stop the pain. He would try to make it so I never have to hurt again but... he would be suffering. Why do you think I pushed so hard? I love him, Jack... but I refuse to hurt him just to end it all. I'd rather deal with the agony then force it on him."

"Jesus, Dud." Anti laughed as he slowly looked over at Chase who's eyes glimmered with unshed tears. "I thought you said you were a demon?"

"I am... I'm just a broken one. One who feels..." Chase's eyes went wide as Anti sighed, his pain slowly going back down to the subtle throb as Jack remained still. "You seriously won't do it. You won't go on the trip?"

"He'll have to understand."