An Unrequited Love - a Short Story (Completed)

#6 Thinking of Her

 

 

Light’s POV

 

 

I was staring at the screen of my phone, and I smiled.

I really love her.

Good thing I was able to take a picture of her from last year’s concert. She was one of the back-up singers. She had no microphone, but she was still singing like she had one. I can’t help but take a picture of her while she closed her eyes and lifted up her hands as she praised God. I took many pictures of her during the concert, ‘cause I can’t help but be fascinated by her. When we took the stage, I looked at her and I saw her smiling at me. I don’t know if at that time, she was really smiling at me, or she was smiling because of Ice.

My heart ached at the thought. Maybe that smile was really meant for Ice. I looked at Ice and he just smiled at me, saying that it was time to start. I just smiled at him, but deep inside, my heart was being crushed into pieces. I can’t help but be jealous of my brother.

I decided to open my Facebook account, and the first thing that came into my mind was her. I searched for her account, and then I inhaled and exhaled deeply. This is it, there’s no turning back now.

I pressed the “Add Friend” button.

She didn’t even bother to send me a request, but when I clicked on who’s our mutual friend, I saw Ice.

I clenched my left hand into a fist, but then, I saw her picture on my screen again. I clicked the “Message” button and began to type.

“Good night, Heart. Hope you went home safe. We’re friends now, right?” I didn’t notice that a little drop of water fell on my eyes.

Friends, is that what I really want?

I continued to type.

“Just wondering if you will accept my friend request. Don’t forget to pray before you go to sleep. Godbless and always take care! I love you, Heart,” but then, I deleted that last statement.

As if I would really say that to her. Maybe someday, but now’s not the right time.

I hope she’s still awake. I really want to talk with her more. I want to see if she’s going to accept my friend request. I want to know her more. I want to…

I want her to love me, too.

I will not stop her from liking Ice, as long as she promises to love me. Martyr, right? That’s how much I love her. I’m willing to give her the happiness that she wants, even if that kills me.

But how can I be close to her if we’re going to be apart for… A year? That’s one stupid long distance relationship, even if we love each other that much. That’s one whole year of temptation, suffering, pain, and sacrifices. Can we manage that? Can I manage that?

Don’t accuse me of being so assuming. I can’t help but think of us being together in the future. It’s better to plan the future than be surprised of it.

But what if she doesn’t like me? What if even I told her that she can still like Ice despite being in a relationship with me, she won’t learn to love me? What if even before I asked her to be my girl, she would reject me and tell me that it’s Ice that she loved all along?

I threw my phone really hard on the bed and it bounced really high. Before it was too late, I was able to catch it.

Wooh! That was close! How can I talk to her if this phone breaks? Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! My anger got over me again.

I looked at the screen and noticed something.

“Heart accepted your friend request,” I immediately jumped on top of my bed because of too much excitement. Then I heard a “ting” sound. I looked at the screen again. “Yup, I got home safe! Of course we’re friends now. And why wouldn’t I accept your friend request if we’re already friends, right?” Friends, just friends, after all. “You too! Oh, I know you wouldn’t forget to pray. Godbless and take care as well! Regards to your family! Good night!” Family, or is it just Ice? I heaved a sigh. This is wrong. I’m being jealous of Ice, and yet he’s my brother. I’m so ashamed of myself. This is all so wrong!