What a girl

Sandpit Fun

Stiles P.O.V

I rocked up at Lydia's but had to park down the road because it was the only spot.
I was walking up the street with chocolates in a love heart shaped box I wore the same black jeans and white hoodie I wore when I asked her out.
I finally got to her drive way just to see her standing there with Isaac I couldn't quite make out what they were saying but I did she him lean in and kiss her.

FUCK!!!

"Lydia?" I said on the verge of crying.

"Stiles" she questioned

"I had heaps of fun today Lydia but I can see you guys have some stuff to sort out so I will be heading off." Isaac said before heading to his car.

Lydia walked to the steps of her front porch and sat down. I didn't know what to do I felt like my legs were gonna collapse and my heart would rupture. I walked over and stood over her.

"What?" she asked

"What! What! I come over here and see you kissing someone else and you ask what! I can barely feel my legs and my chest feels like it's gonna cave in. What do you expect me to say?" I yelled.

"Well at least you don't have burning hot rage in your throat. At least your not having a panic attack and throwing up at the school dance that your meant to be at with your boyfriend. At least the pain isn't making you finally realize and accept that your brought a child into the world just to have him die. At least you don't walk around every day wondering what's wrong with you? Why you couldn't have a normal pregnacy and have two perfectly healthy children? Why your boyfriend BestFriend and the love of your life wasn't happy enough with you? Why he has to find someone else? Why he didn't at least have the decency to break up with you if he didn't love you any more? If anything your lucky stiles your lucky that your not me. Trust me it's the worst thing in the world. I act like I love myself but that's only to hide how much I really truly fucking hate myself." Lydia screamed and cried. This was when I finally realized I didn't know everything about Lydia. I didn't know Lydia wasn't perfect well at least not in her eyes. She didn't see how perfect I thought she was. But now I see she is so much more beautiful then I thought she was. I loved her so much. She had to know that.

"Lydia I love you. I never stopped I went to help bunny fix the sound system and when I was done I got up and turned to find you but instead was ambushed with lips I pushed her off as soon as I realized it wasn't you. It was horrible I had this gut feeling of guilt and self hatred I needed to find you but first I needed to throw up I ran out to the back of the school and started to throw up that when Scott found me and I explained what was wrong and before I could come find you allison ran out crying saying you had a panic attack one of your worst ever so when I came to check on the girl I love the most in the world. She pushed me out and closed herself off. I was heart broken I ran home and cried and cried and cried I then got abused by Allison and when she left I cried myself to sleep when I woke up this morning I spent all day thinking of what I could to and I had planed a scavenger hunt of milestone in our friendship/relationship starting with driving you to the sand box where we met I have a picnic there and"

"Stiles stop I love you with everything I own and everything I believe in but I was heartbroken and I need you to know I won't trust you 100% for a long long time. I need you in my life though so if you fine with being trusted only 80-90% then let go. If not I'm sorry."

"I will earn back that trust if it's the last thing I do. Lydia I love you and you could literally hate me and leave me to die and I would never stop loving you. I will do anything for you."

"Well then in that case lets go on this Romantic scavenger hunt"

I kissed her perfect lips and bridal style carried her to my jeep