Roman's Little Sister

TEN

           "Seth!" I call out as I run after him down the corridor. "Seth come on. Please." I whine.

            He stops suddenly and turns to face me. His nostrils are flaring as he runs his hand down his face. "What the hell was that Desi?" he grits out furiously. He is clenching his jaw so hard I actually worried that he might chip his teeth from barring down so hard.

          "Why the hell didn't you choose Dean? After all you two have already started the story in real life right?" he says shaking his head.

            I thought by choosing him it would help me fix whatever broke when he saw me in Dean's bed, but maybe I was just being selfish.

         "I chose you because you are one of my best friends Seth. I trust you, probably more than anyone else. The idea of doing this with anyone but you just wouldn't feel comfortable." I say as honestly as I can. "I...I'm sorry, I didn't think you would get mad." I say hanging my head in embarrasment.

           He blows out a hard breath and runs his fingers through his long hair before responding. "Damn it. I'm not mad that you chose me Sweetheart. I just..." he trails off, looking off beyond us like he is trying to coolect his thoughts.

          "You just what?" I ask. He is still looking off, so I place my hand on his arm to get his attention. "You just what Seth?" I ask again.

           He looks down at me before continuing. "I just don't know if I can do it." he says.

          "Why not? Is this because of what happened between me and Dean? Seth, I really am sorry. I never planned for that to happen, and we didn't... you know.. do... that" I whisper shamefully.

          "That is only part of it, Dez... yeah okay seeing you in Dean's bed was a shock. But that's not the biggest reason I can't do this." he says.

          "Then what. What is the main reason you can't do this?" I search his face for an answer. He closes his eyes and tilts his head back like he his trying to see through the roof. "Seth?" I push for an answer, I don't have to wait long.

          "Fuck it!" Seth exclaims before he grabs my face in both of his hands and smashs his lips to mine. I'm so shocked at the situation that I gasp. He takes that as an invitaion and I feel his tongue running over mine. He is pouring everything into the kiss and I start to relax, close my eyes and go with the feeling of comfort and kiss him back.

           It's different from Dean's kiss. Dean is rough and possessive like he is trying to claim my soul with his mouth. Seth, is soft and slow, like he is trying to cherish it. Both so different and yet they both feel... perfect.

           He starts to slow the kiss, slowly pulling back and pecks at my lips one last time before he speaks. His eyes search my face for emotion. "That, is why I don't know if I can do this storyline with you Sweetheart. I care about you. I have feelings for you." he says softly.

          "I don't know what to say Seth. I didn't know. I care about you too." I say with the only repsonse I can scrape together. "Why didn't you say anything?" I ask.

         "Because we are friends and I was afraid to mess that up. Plus you are Roman's little sister." he said chuckling.

         "Oh crap. Roman. I've kissed both of his best friends now. What is wrong with me? He is going to hate me." I ramble to myself more than to Seth, but he still trys to calm me down.

         "Whoa, hey easy. Trust me when I tell you that if Roman ever finds out about this, you are the last person he is going to be mad at. Now me and Dean... yeah, he's uh... he's liable to just kill us both on the spot." he assures me with a small smile. He looks at me again to make sure I've stopped freaking out.