Life Of A Single Mom

Chapter Nine

Here I am possibly pregnant and don't know who the dad is. How could I possibly get myself in this situation? Called my best friend Tracey up because she was the only one I could confide in and tell me what to do. I didn't have to question her loyalty or vice versa. Tracey pulled up bearing gifts; wine and a pregnancy test. She was as nervous as me because if I was I would be a single mother of four kids, not one but four fucking kids. What the hell I was gone do with four kids? I peed on the stick and sat it on the back of the toilet because I was not ready to look at the results. Tracey and I sat and talk for hours and sipping on our wine. She decided to go in the bathroom because she seen I was avoiding to see the results. "Bitch, you're pregnant" the words I was dreading to hear. So many emotions came over me. How was I suppose to break this news to them? Should I tell them both or just keep it to myself and let it all hit the fan whenever that time came? The shit that was going through my head but I put myself in that situation so I had to own up to it and be a woman. I ended up going to the doctor so I can hear it from a doctor mouth before I stressed myself out. Hearing it from a doctor really struck a nerve. I cried the rest of that day. Like what the hell I was going to do with four kids but one thing I wasn't about to do was get an abortion or give my baby away. I laid down and made it, so it was my responsibility to take care of him or her. That's just one sin I couldn't picture myself doing. I text Will and John to let them know and sat back to wait on a response. I know I was a wimp for texting instead of calling or telling them to their face.  Only thing about this situation they didn't know that it was a possibility it could be one or the other. That there was no knowing how this would end. When i say a girl life couldn't get any worse at the time. Depression took over heavy.