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"hold on!" i yelled, as i held tighter on hitomi's hand, my other hand resting on the railings, trying to push myself up, with the rising panic on me, i started to sweat, as she looked up at me with tears, her left hand with mine, while her other was was hanging down.
"come on!" i yelled again, as i tried my best to hold on, my mint cardigan almost flew off.
i put my other hand on my right hand as i pull her harder up with all my strength, finally pulling her up to the railings down to the ground with all my strength.
"ouch!" both of us fall down to the floor of the rooftop.
she was looking down, both of her hands on the floor, as she pants heavily, between her pants i could hear her sobs.
"never do it again." i stated, as i stared at her, droplets of sweats falling from my face, my braids almost come off.
but i was focused to her.
tears fall from her eyes and it rolled down to her cheeks, as she gripped her chest, crying her heart out.
"w-why?" she muttered out, slowly looking at me.
this was the second chance i saved her.
i can't believe she did it again.
"stop it hitomi." i said, making her cry more, her sobs getting louder and louder.
i laid down on the floor, tired.
and scared,
i never felt scared for something like this before.
i sat up,
looking at my hands that were red, and a bit sweaty.
my heart was beating fast, from the moment i saw her falling.
i can't let go.
not when it was her.
"you didn't have to do this." hitomi mumbled through her sobs that was still audible.
she sounds so fragile like a crystal clear glass.
"i need to." i said, as i took out something from my pocket.
her note,
suicide note.
i ripped it off and threw it.
sighing heavily.
"all of what i did might get into waste, my feelings. i want it back." i demanded, slamming my hands on the floor, looking at her with a frown.
"i never locked that damn cabinet where that pills at just for you to jump here!" hitomi looked shocked, as she bit her bottom lip and cried again.
"shut up, not because i told you not to jump you'll do it to me too." hitomi stated, wiping her tears and letting out a sarcastic laugh.
"i did it first." i argued back.
"why didn't you disappear! you're also using me!" hitomi yelled, standing up and walking up to me with a frown.
i looked up at her and chuckled.
"damn, am i like that?" i asked her.
"everyone is! after telling them and convincing them to piss off and stop suicide! they disappear! they never do it to me too!" hitomi yelled, and glared at me, stomping her feet.
"shut up i'm here! plus! you're anxious about people not caring about you that you forgot those persons think about you!" i yelled back, trying my best to stand up and grab her collar.
"even, even if we have the same pain we're different!" hitomi spat out.
"the fuck no! we're the same! i saved you from suicide you saved me too, and now i'm returning the favor! do it too!" i let go of her collar as she almost fell out of balance.
"what do you want me to do then?! stay with you!?" she questioned.
"yes! stay with me! i love you okay?!" i answered her stomping my feet, my throat sore and i almost lost my voice.
"i'm not doing this for no reason!" i continued.
"if you're not okay with it! just stay with me!"
hitomi stared at me, her eyes swollen and red, her lips quivering.
i ran up to her and hugged her, tightly, i never felt this way before.
